04-24-2016, 10:55 PM
It has been over a year since I came out and I finally had a period of crying over the situation. I had been watching videos on YouTube and one struck me the wrong way. It brought to mind my deep emotional distress over having spent 36 years in the closet. Granted, I would likely have not been involved with someone until I was 18, but that is still 30 years of missed relationships. I occasionally view new coming out videos on YouTube and my eyes fill up with tears of joy for the young people who have a positive coming out experience. I watch YouTube couples live their young lives, frolicking and enjoying life the way I wish I had. I guess I will be limited to living vicariously through those videos, as my situations and relationship options present a less than promising future in meeting those goals in real life.
I live in rural Maine where there are few options within my age range, much less my preferences. I am old fashioned in that I believe in developing a friendship first and letting things develop from there. That is not the way relationships work nowadays, and it is not likely to happen over a long distance relationship. Due to my career aspirations, I cannot at this time be fully open in my sexuality, though most of my friends know. I cannot relocate out of the area because I need to support family members with needs.
I am planning on settling into a new position in the next year, then being open to whatever relationship opportunities come my way.
Thanks for reading my post and for any comments that may be made.
I live in rural Maine where there are few options within my age range, much less my preferences. I am old fashioned in that I believe in developing a friendship first and letting things develop from there. That is not the way relationships work nowadays, and it is not likely to happen over a long distance relationship. Due to my career aspirations, I cannot at this time be fully open in my sexuality, though most of my friends know. I cannot relocate out of the area because I need to support family members with needs.
I am planning on settling into a new position in the next year, then being open to whatever relationship opportunities come my way.
Thanks for reading my post and for any comments that may be made.