05-13-2016, 12:38 AM
Welp, I did it. Today I actually admitted to someone for the first time that I liked guys. It was kind of spur of the moment and I don't necessarily think it was the best time, but it didn't feel like a bad time either. It also went extremely well.
For those that read through my other post (the ridiculously long one), the girl I admitted things to was one I had discussed a lot of relationship issues with. Exhausted is a better word actually. I sort just dropped it on her, told her I had something important to tell her and then basically said, "Remember the discussions we've had about that girl and relationship struggles and stuff? Well, it wasn't about a girl."
She literally looked at me and said, "I know, I figured as much but I didn't want to address it because I wasn't sure if you didn't know yet or if you weren't ready to say so." We talked a little bit about it, talked about how it really doesn't change anything which is the response I hope I will always get (although I'm prepared for worse reactions).
I do feel a little better in general, not a 100% cure but I know that's not what would happen. On the plus side it came fairly easily. I didn't really stumble with any of the words and I didn't find myself catching my breath or anything which was a relief. I also don't regret it at the moment, which was a concern that I would immediately want to take it back. I had actually planned on telling two other people this weekend over a lunch date (those reactions will also be good without a doubt) but for some reason I felt like I should tell this person right then and well, just did.
Thanks for the support and advice guys. It's helped more than you can imagine.
For those that read through my other post (the ridiculously long one), the girl I admitted things to was one I had discussed a lot of relationship issues with. Exhausted is a better word actually. I sort just dropped it on her, told her I had something important to tell her and then basically said, "Remember the discussions we've had about that girl and relationship struggles and stuff? Well, it wasn't about a girl."
She literally looked at me and said, "I know, I figured as much but I didn't want to address it because I wasn't sure if you didn't know yet or if you weren't ready to say so." We talked a little bit about it, talked about how it really doesn't change anything which is the response I hope I will always get (although I'm prepared for worse reactions).
I do feel a little better in general, not a 100% cure but I know that's not what would happen. On the plus side it came fairly easily. I didn't really stumble with any of the words and I didn't find myself catching my breath or anything which was a relief. I also don't regret it at the moment, which was a concern that I would immediately want to take it back. I had actually planned on telling two other people this weekend over a lunch date (those reactions will also be good without a doubt) but for some reason I felt like I should tell this person right then and well, just did.
Thanks for the support and advice guys. It's helped more than you can imagine.