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Teenage Porn Viewing
#1
I have to make a confession here.

AT one point in my life I have viewed gay porn as a teenager and have masturbated to it. How does this affect my brain and my life? I used to get very moody after a few days later. I am not sure how it can be healthy or normal. I have consulted therapists, teen hotlines, and many other sources and they all claimt hat porn is virtually harmless. Am I being misinformed? I would like to have concrete sources on the net that suggest that porn is not normal. Also, most of the sites that are anti-porn are religious in nature. I do not have a problem with that but it is sort of biased in a way and I want someone who is neutral in their stance and takes all the evidence into consideration. I want to know the truth and I want it now. I do not want to hesitate. I was dumb and I cannot believe that I did that as s ateen. I know it's ridiculous but I have to admit it affected my social skills and I found myself not being able to make conversation with others about sports, about anythign that men liked, and i was always going on porn on the weekend. I only would watch til I got off and that was it. It was less than a minute, but still, there were this warm feeling in my head which seemed like the neurons were firing at the moment and I don't know. Let me know before it's too late. I hate having to suffer from what they called porn-induced erectile dysfunction. A socially active person does not even bother with porn at all. I am sure of that. Not that I am stereotypical or anything, but if you have lots of friends and you're always out, you do not need that kind of trash.

Could you provide me with some concrete sources on what it does to the brain, how it affects the prefrontal cortex, temporal, occipital, parietal lobes? Also, I am not sure if there is any validity to that German study that talks about having fewer grey matter in the brain. Personally, I feel that my brain has shrink. I really do. Each time when I view a porn video, here's what I have noticed. I do journal quite a bit so I am able to identify all the problems I face afterward:

unclear speech(or perhaps a mix up of words or mixing up the tenses with words or not being able to find the right word to express myself which can sound really awkward in front of others which indicate that social skills are simply not as well as it was before)
intense anger
depressed state of mind
negative thinking
fatigue
Trust me, I doubt I was addicted to porn. I was using it to ejaculate. My heart rate increased every time prior to viewing porn. They seemed almost like panic attacks. I was always shut up in my room and I felt like i had nowhere to go. I felt like shutting my room every time I had wanted to view porn as a teen. Started at age 14 and then I stopped at 18. Then occasionally at 19 I would wake up in the middle of the night to watch it and I would cum. I never understood why I had this happen to me. It was so weird. Then I would subsequently fall asleep.
Even when I had erections, I tried to get rid of them by masturbating. They were very uncomfortable and they lasted for several minutes. I tried to not touch it at all and it's just..I thought to myself,"You know what? Why don't you just get off so you can get rid of the erection?"
My nocturnal emissions were exhausting. I once had it thrice a day and it was terrible. Well they took place from morning to late afternoon to night. It was terrible. I was like what is going to happen to me? By the end of the day, my muscles were twitching. Twitches seem to be a sign of dehydration, so I don't know what happened. I am trying to seek answers all over the place, online research, books, youtube videos, and it's just...I wish I know. I really do. Maybe the way that I do searches simply are not effective and not yielding the results that I need.
I don't know what has happened to my brain. I used to excel in many areas, but when the porn started and the masturbation, I was indolent for a period of time and everything else suffered. I felt guilty due to the upbringing I have had. I was taught that masturbation was wrong and I had many religious leaders that I had told about and they did nothing. I was hoping they would hold me accountable or perhaps follow up with me when I had my "addiction" but they didn't. All they did was blather on about sexual purity when I was attending sunday school and it was just awful. I never had any solace whatsoever and therefore I left the church. Religion gave me absolutely no peace and no, if you try to pray away those urges, it just comes back and the more you prya intensely, the more likely you are to experience them much more than you would, leaving you in a state of guilt and remorse.
For me, I have always been a loner, so it was easy for me to stay in on the weekend, not go out with friends, and then view porn for a split second and then jack off and then get tired and not feel motivated at all. I was angry all the time. It affected my relationships with others, with my family, with everyone. I didn't want to see anyone. ANy time I viewed porn, I would be afraid to walk out of my house, thinking someone was going to discover what I did. People always looked at me when I viewed porn. It isn't paranoia, becuase normally people do not even notice me, but when I approach them from behind, they stare at me or they glare at me almost as though they knew what I did in secret.
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#2
I doubt you will find many guys here who will agree with your about masturbation being bad for you.
Healthy guys, both physically and emotionally, have healthy sex drives and like to cum either by jacking off or sex.
I have lots of friends and a happy social life and I like to jerk off. So shoot me. Or shoot on me, one or the other.
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#3
Didn't [MENTION=23097]Insertnamehere[/MENTION] already outline the "what it does to the brain, how it affects the prefrontal cortex, temporal, occipital, parietal lobes" etc for you in your previous post about masturbation being bad for the body and the whole "wasting sperm" discussion? Or are you asking about reactions to porn specifically?

Quote:A socially active person does not even bother with porn at all. I am sure of that. Not that I am stereotypical or anything, but if you have lots of friends and you're always out, you do not need that kind of trash

This isn't true in my experience. I don't know about gay men (I didn't hang out with a lot of gay men earlier in my life, and don't now) but out of the straight men I knew in college? Social standing and how socially active they are has NO effect on whether or not they watch porn, just on how -much- porn they watch (those sitting in their dorm 24/7 have more time to watch it and often watch it more than those with more busy lives. But even those with busy lives still watch it.

Interestingly, I don't enjoy porn. I have always been more drawn to erotica (written porn) than vids or mags. In the years I've been with [MENTION=20938]Gideon[/MENTION], we've written a lot of our own porn, actually, which is even better than just reading it.
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#4
Darius Wrote:I doubt you will find many guys here who will agree with your about masturbation being bad for you.
Healthy guys, both physically and emotionally, have healthy sex drives and like to cum either by jacking off or sex.
I have lots of friends and a happy social life and I like to jerk off. So shoot me. Or shoot on me, one or the other.

Well I mean, I hate to admit this, but I secretly enjoy it. It's just that I am very complicated. One minute I'm liking it, the next minute I don't. I don't know why but I guess some religious beliefs had been embedded in me and for that reason I guess once a belief is implanted in me it's hard for me to enjoy it.
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#5
Do yourself a favor. Do a Google search Massterbation and Brain.Read some of the articles and then do as you will. Masterbation has been a part of my life and many of my friends. I don;t think any of us are maladjusted because of it.
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#6
Watching porn is a normal thing for many people. You will not find "concrete sources that porn is not normal", because it is. You enjoy it, but feel bad about it. Perhaps that is because of religious reasons or personal experiences, I don't know. All I know is that you are really overthinking things here and being grossly paranoid. There is no reason to be ashamed of viewing porn. It isn't going to harm you.

Masturbation is a normal thing. I have many friends and an active social life yet I still love to masturbate regularly, so that comment was again, misinformed and illogical. I am not going to repeat what I said in the other thread. It is clear it is deeply entrained into you that it is a bad and unhealthy thing, so entrained that you are not listening to reason and what other people are saying, and instead keep beating the same old drum of nonsense.

Either you are a troll, or you need serious help.
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#7
Wanking it is also proven to be healthy for the body by doctors! It helps reduces stress levels
I am the angles that hold and surround you

I am the demon you're afraid to meet
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#8
TwisttheLeaf Wrote:Didn't [MENTION=23097]

Interestingly, I don't enjoy porn. I have always been more drawn to erotica (written porn) than vids or mags. In the years I've been with [MENTION=20938]Gideon[/MENTION], we've written a lot of our own porn, actually, which is even better than just reading it.

I think because I am an avid reader in general with a good imagination, written porn really gets me off, too. I tend to read porn stories while playing a porn video at the same time.
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#9
Per Cridders88: "Either you are a troll, or you need serious help."

Methinks both must apply.
I bid NO Trump!
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#10
Maybe he thinks he'll get a different answer if he asks again, in a slightly different manner, and on a different part of the forum.
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