07-06-2016, 01:16 AM
I was recently looking through some old photos, mostly of me 12 and younger. As I did, I recalled books I read, things I had, shows I enjoyed, skills I was learning, groups I was a part of, and so on...can't say I missed it, though. Especially as I knew what was coming.
Sometimes it was immanent. I saw some of me on the farm at 4 (and younger) and knowing I'd soon be taken to a new home that was much less pleasant (though when I first went there, there were woods instead of housing developments, which I'd forgotten until I saw the pix). I saw another pic of me with neighborhood girls (at a birthday party) knowing that within a year of that pic being taken I'd be shunned by all of them. I saw one with a star globe that I'd forgotten about (but loved at the time), but knew that within a couple of years Mom would sell it while I was away.
Even so, it was all before life got really...tough. But it was all leading up to that (the latest childhood pic about a year, perhaps even just months, before the hard times began). And I didn't feel nostalgia, if anything I felt a dull sort of dread...and a great relief that it was over, and I'd never have to face that again (and suddenly shuddering at the thought of reincarnation). Though it would be nice to go back and get back a few things I lost (to bring back to the present), what I've gained since adulthood is far better than what I've lost.
So many are nostalgic, and I read an interesting article on how remakes really can feel like "ruining my childhood" which is based on nostalgia and how one defines the self through their childhood experiences. But I don't feel that.
I wonder how many here do. Life is generally rougher, especially in childhood, for one who is gay. When you think back on childhood (especially when looking at photos, which I'm sure will focus on Christmas, birthday parties, and generally good times), do you feel a longing to return to a simpler time, or more relieved that it's over? :confused:
Bonus question: if you're more glad that it's over, do you get mad over remakes for "ruining your childhood"?
Sometimes it was immanent. I saw some of me on the farm at 4 (and younger) and knowing I'd soon be taken to a new home that was much less pleasant (though when I first went there, there were woods instead of housing developments, which I'd forgotten until I saw the pix). I saw another pic of me with neighborhood girls (at a birthday party) knowing that within a year of that pic being taken I'd be shunned by all of them. I saw one with a star globe that I'd forgotten about (but loved at the time), but knew that within a couple of years Mom would sell it while I was away.
Even so, it was all before life got really...tough. But it was all leading up to that (the latest childhood pic about a year, perhaps even just months, before the hard times began). And I didn't feel nostalgia, if anything I felt a dull sort of dread...and a great relief that it was over, and I'd never have to face that again (and suddenly shuddering at the thought of reincarnation). Though it would be nice to go back and get back a few things I lost (to bring back to the present), what I've gained since adulthood is far better than what I've lost.
So many are nostalgic, and I read an interesting article on how remakes really can feel like "ruining my childhood" which is based on nostalgia and how one defines the self through their childhood experiences. But I don't feel that.
I wonder how many here do. Life is generally rougher, especially in childhood, for one who is gay. When you think back on childhood (especially when looking at photos, which I'm sure will focus on Christmas, birthday parties, and generally good times), do you feel a longing to return to a simpler time, or more relieved that it's over? :confused:
Bonus question: if you're more glad that it's over, do you get mad over remakes for "ruining your childhood"?