my poetry

[soulfulldove]

i love poetry but im very...selective or shy whichever one fits about where i post it since it's developed to be very personal to me. so, here's one i wrote a day or two ago.


Heat
the sun beats down upon my face
an orange glow sets the scenery around
i can see the rain ahead, moving my way
and i welcome it with embracing arms
a smile on my face

this heat was unbearable
i've been waiting for it to wash away
and cleanse this shell of a life

so many magical things can happen in the rain
you just have to go outside to experience it
all your desires and wishes are in those drops
and when it's all over, colors in the sky are there
as a promise it'll happen again

the sun burns the hardest before the cool rain comes
even though it's burning hardest for me now
if the rain moves to someone else in need of it, let it

i lay on the hot pavement scalded
by the branding iron of life and reality
but it's happened so many times, the pain is just numb to me
i hear others shrieking and screaming for it to stop
that it shouldn't be happening to them and that they're the only ones
but they're blinded by the white rays of light of the sun
they can not hear those around them, taking it silently

i lay, patiently for the rain to come, my eyes closed
seeing images of my dreams and friends with their cross
i hold nothing in my hands except a pen and paper
the words i write are my only salvation so the paper does not burn
my blood sweat and tears evaporate their way to the sky
to be taken into account on their worth, my heart and soul
are the only things left to pay the price of my life
to pay the price of my life

the rain occasionally comes to give me hope for another day
and only once or twice have i felt His hand on my face and hear,
"just wait a little bit longer now, just a little longer"
those words pound through my head as i ponder over and over
ponder and pound, ponder and pound my way through this haze
i only pray it's not too late to understand what they mean
as i lay here, burning on this pavement, as the sun beats down
upon my face, the orange glow setting up the scenery,
the rain ahead, moving my way as i welcome it with embracing arms

[marshlander]

I would like to see more of your work. Can you keep it all in this thread so it is easy to find again?

I like the rainbow shape of this one. Just as I thought you were writing about one thing it changes to embrace another idea, and another ...

[fjp999]

[COLOR="Purple"]AGREED

Fantastic and beautiful imagery! [/COLOR]

[soulfulldove]

thank you ^-^ i'll definitely be sharing more of my poetry here.
here are couple more i wrote about a month or two ago but just felt like sharing them with some friends for the first time recently. they liked it, but i feel really iffy about them cuz they're so personal ^-^;
(i apologize for this first poem's length...and also dont be afraid to ask questions if you're confused about something im talking about. both of these poems i felt like i was just ranting and not making any sense)


every day it's the same damn thing
optimists have their heads in the clouds
pessimists are just so drained they don't live
apathetics don't see anything wrong
well what about I see?
what about where I am?
Does that matter in the course of life?
No, of course not
I'm just one person
who makes a difference
with her words and love
but all of it is wrong, just wrong
she talks and writes about a faith
that doesn't exist
about love that can never be
it's all just wrong, she won't survive
she's not fit enough in this life
shame it's the only one she's got
but who are we to care
about others than ourselves and our problems
who are we but lost children given up
it's only the fools that hope
it won't be long before we all snap
and explode like the bombs that go off
every fucking day of our lives
if a bomb is dropped on a city
will you hear the screams?
Have you ever heard the tears
fall off a crying child's cheek?
Can you imagine what it's like
to even be someone else
or are we all just alternate egos
in a parallel universe
trapped with no way of getting
beyond the invisible wall of
being different from everyone around me
what the hell has happened?
what the hell is happening to me?
Let me out! I scream
Let me out of my box my mind my shell!
Let me out of my life
to show others what's going on
Even great writers find it hard to speak
that's why they write
Papers don't judge and criticize
they don't reject you for who you are
they don't scream hate
and let it fill all your insecurity's desires
to the point of ultimate paranoia
it's taking over, it's gonna getchya
So just rescue me already
this princess is getting bored waiting
She's listened to almost every CD
and written all over her converse shoes
But don't make her chose
because she feels confused about
which guy makes her laugh more
which one makes her feel like she's in the air
which one makes her more relaxed
But only one has climbed her tower
and called it home until he feels ready
to show her his kingdom of the future
the fairy tale ending she's secretly wanted
ever since she was a little girl
but she still looks out her window
at all the other possible princes
she can't tell if they're waiting for her
or only staying a safe distance away
so they won't have to wait
for something that will only stay in a dream
If they're waiting
how will she escape from her tower?
She's afraid to jump from her dreams
to find she made the biggest mistake
and live with a limp for the rest of her life
reminding her of the guilt and burden
she will carry with an eternity
But she wants more than the dream
She wants it all to be real
She's read all about stories filled with crises and drama
let it all happen to her
just so she can prove to the world
she deserves to be here
she's strong
she has a purpose after all
Why does she have to be so abnormally average?
She's losing her touch
but refuses to call for help
she wants to show
that a princess can be knight
she gave up her dresses her feminity
to prove her strength and worth
to gain respect from men
but she's still a girl
growing into a woman role
she's played the boy part
for so long she almost forgets why
She's stuck between being
a knight and princess
it won't be long before she can't be either
So she'll stay locked up with her prince
waiting for a chance to ride away
with him into the sunset
so simple and predictable and true
or jump out into the arms
of another prospect who will circle
round her tower only to throw her back into it,
locked away for the rest of her life
everyday is the same damn thing
history is such a broken record
it needs to get a life




"Oh God Guide Me Protect Me, Make Me a Shining Lamp and a Brilliant Star! Thou Art the Mighty and Powerful"-Abdul Baha

I'm haunted by a vision
of a man holding a cross
"He died for you so die for him!"
I'm crushed to death
by the weight of The Book
that says I will go to Hell

original sin?
I'm the original sin!
Fuck, I'm the God damned apple!
Take a bite, come on!
I'll wrap that snake around your body
and make you suck the poison out
look in the mirror
see the juice drip down your chin
and realize that you're one mistake
was not expanding knowledge
tasting the bittersweet flavor of it

I'm searching through this jungle of a garden
trying to find a way out
I scream "Let me out! Let me out!"
The cross is chasing me
words of love and peace fill my head
what I see and what I hear
aren't mixing, they're not combining
Oh God, tell me that man holding the cross isn't you!
I burst through the gate and then
it's all so quiet until He speaks
"Come with me child. Let me show you the way, for I am the One and Almighty God"

[ublutwyche]

every day it's the same damn thing
optimists have their heads in the clouds
pessimists are just so drained they don't live
apathetics don't see anything wrong
well what about I see?
what about where I am?
Does that matter in the course of life?
No, of course not
I'm just one person
who makes a difference
with her words and love
but all of it is wrong, just wrong
she talks and writes about a faith
that doesn't exist
about love that can never be
it's all just wrong, she won't survive
she's not fit enough in this life
shame it's the only one she's got
but who are we to care
about others than ourselves and our problems
who are we but lost children given up
it's only the fools that hope
it won't be long before we all snap
and explode like the bombs that go off
every fucking day of our lives
if a bomb is dropped on a city
will you hear the screams?
Have you ever heard the tears
fall off a crying child's cheek?
Can you imagine what it's like
to even be someone else
or are we all just alternate egos
in a parallel universe
trapped with no way of getting
beyond the invisible wall of
being different from everyone around me
what the hell has happened?
what the hell is happening to me?
Let me out! I scream
Let me out of my box my mind my shell!
Let me out of my life
to show others what's going on
Even great writers find it hard to speak
that's why they write
Papers don't judge and criticize
they don't reject you for who you are
they don't scream hate
and let it fill all your insecurity's desires
to the point of ultimate paranoia
it's taking over, it's gonna getchya
So just rescue me already
this princess is getting bored waiting
She's listened to almost every CD
and written all over her converse shoes
But don't make her chose
because she feels confused about
which guy makes her laugh more
which one makes her feel like she's in the air
which one makes her more relaxed
But only one has climbed her tower
and called it home until he feels ready
to show her his kingdom of the future
the fairy tale ending she's secretly wanted
ever since she was a little girl
but she still looks out her window
at all the other possible princes
she can't tell if they're waiting for her
or only staying a safe distance away
so they won't have to wait
for something that will only stay in a dream
If they're waiting
how will she escape from her tower?
She's afraid to jump from her dreams
to find she made the biggest mistake
and live with a limp for the rest of her life
reminding her of the guilt and burden
she will carry with an eternity
But she wants more than the dream
She wants it all to be real
She's read all about stories filled with crises and drama
let it all happen to her
just so she can prove to the world
she deserves to be here
she's strong
she has a purpose after all
Why does she have to be so abnormally average?
She's losing her touch
but refuses to call for help
she wants to show
that a princess can be knight
she gave up her dresses her feminity
to prove her strength and worth
to gain respect from men
but she's still a girl
growing into a woman role
she's played the boy part
for so long she almost forgets why
She's stuck between being
a knight and princess
it won't be long before she can't be either
So she'll stay locked up with her prince
waiting for a chance to ride away
with him into the sunset
so simple and predictable and true
or jump out into the arms
of another prospect who will circle
round her tower only to throw her back into it,
locked away for the rest of her life
everyday is the same damn thing
history is such a broken record
it needs to get a life

I like this one a lot. I can relate to most of it, not so much the princess/feminine side of it, but I did feel it when reading the first half
Thanks for sharing

[soulfulldove]

thanx ^_^ i shared it this past year in my creative writing class and everyone loved it which surprised me. that poem is extremely personal to me and i didnt think anyone would like it at all except those who really knew me. apparently not

[fjp999]

[COLOR="Purple"]I really love your writing... again, some great imagery.

Hope you are looking for various events to publish in.[/COLOR]

[soulfulldove]

acutally i havent really looked for any for my poetry to be published. but i guess i can look into it, but i dont think my poems are great material to actually be published.

[fjp999]

[COLOR="Purple"]There are some sites online that cater to the gay community of writers. I think some are sites that work like support/criticism groups.

I am not a writer so havent really looked into them but google is everyones friend.[/COLOR]

[soulfulldove]

lol, indeed. well i'll definitely look up some sites ^_^