Off The Cuff - Chuck's Poems

[CellarDweller]

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Going gets rough, sometimes that's true
Lasts as long as you want it to
Always open hearted is how you should be
Don't close heart or mind, please let yourself see
You have something special, somehthing others wish for
Outside looking in, those people are poor
Useless is the anger, that can rip you apart
Work to maintain a space in each other's heart
Overcame the difference, after a talk
Relaxed once again, as friends you will walk
Keep the bonds intact, it's worth the fight
Excellant that you made what was wrong, right
Doubted each other, perhaps for a while
I knew you'd fix it, grudges aren't your style
Together as friends, the bond, it will grow
Others wil see, your friendship does show
Undone, this friendship will not become
Try to spread it around, give everyone some
Fantasticly handled by you two men
Rather than acting like spoiled children
I am feeling happy that this you achieved
Ended it, and a deep sigh I heaved
No more estrangement, it came to an end
Destroying a friendship, I can't comprehend
So hold on to what you have, a trustworthy friend

[CellarDweller]

Life is never easy
although we wish it were
it can run by at breakneck speed
we only see it as a blur
we wish for only positive
we only wish to gain
but we feel like we're in darkness
it seems we only feel the pain
weight of the world upon us
it seems too much to bear
we cry, we scream, we shed the tears
feels like our hearts will tear.
the world can be such a harsh place
that's something that we're told
so let's reach out to one another
grab a friend to hold
darkness and hurt will always fade
no matter what the size
so let's climb the mountain side by side
and wait for the sun to rise

[CellarDweller]

I'll See You At The Gate

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You were a special person
too special for this place
always had a song in your heart
and a smile on your face
opened up your home to friends
and opened your heart too
always ready to share some laughs
and talk to friends when they were blue
a bubbling personality
so brightly your light shone
I would've talked to you much more
but you were always on the phone 
and then your last day comes
with the sadness that it brings
but you really couldn't stay here
you had to go and get your wings
you're up among the angels now
there's no more pain and no more hate
and when my time comes to cross over
I know I'll see you at the gate

[CellarDweller]

Fork in The Road


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come upon a fork in the road
how to turn, and still carry your load
on your own, feeling unsure
often feeling insecure
seeking answers on your way
existing for more, day by day
clutching to part of your past
almost like a sail to a mast
remember the past may hold you back
excusing it to cut others some slack
forward moving is what you need
unless you pick up greater speed
love that you seek may never be reached
lonely and regretful, your happiness breached
your hopeful future may end up dead
because you refused to look only ahead
in forward motion is the way to be
go on to the future and wonders you will see
back to the past, it may cause you pain
regrets could be many, resources may drain
only you know what is best for you
think with a clear head, and choose what you should do
happiness for you, that is what you seek
either path lay in front of you, don't you feel weak
rewards must be earned, they aren't handed to the meek

[CellarDweller]

A City Boy's Mentality, With a Cowboy's Soul


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a city boy's mentality
and a cowboy's soul
and where do I go
when I want to feel "whole"
the city's my home
where I was born and bred
the sights and the sounds
are all up in my head
but the mountains and crisp air
they can bring me peace
I would go there in a heartbeat
when I need the noise to cease
the sounds of a club
where I could dance all night
the smell of the food
that I cooked by firelight
the crowded stores
that use sales to tease
the rustle of leaves
from a cool autumn breeze
a New Jersey breakfast
that's second to none
the Colorado mountians
under the midday sun
both settings do suit me
I guess that is my role
to have a city boy's mentality
and a cowboy's soul

[CellarDweller]

The Full Plate

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A familiar feeling, that I've come to hate
realizing I have, too much on my plate
I want some peace, I need some rest
I want to be away, that would be the best
but instead what I have, in my cluttered life
are unwanted situations, causing me strife
giving me trouble, and causing much tension
these outside forces, all calling for my attention
affecting my heath, affecting my mind
affecting my moods, putting me in a bind
I refuse to give in, and let it all get to me
and once again I find out, just how strong I can be
I'm not one to give up, and so now I must fight
right now things are dark, at tunnel's end, there is light
and when it's all settled, a new "normal" is in place
that I will adjust to, in my personal space
I will sail through, all this storm, and this din
rest for the weary will be found, and I'll breathe again

[CellarDweller]

What Does It Mean to be Gay

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What does it mean to be gay
So many answers one can give
How you act, how you talk, how you dress
Perhaps it’s the way that you live
There is no one answer that fits the bill
“Gay” has many facets, like a gem
And each person that you ask
Will give an answer that suits them

“Gay” is showy, with lamé and boas
Shaking their ass in a parade



“gay” is the carpenter building a house
Using his hands for his trade



“gay” is the banker in a button down shirt
Working in the corporate setting



“gay” is the person working out in the gym
Doing is reps and is sweating



“gay” is the drag queen up there on the stage
Putting his heart and soul into the show



“gay” is the farmer in his jeans and boots
Planting crops after the snow



“gay” are the ones who are dressed to the ‘nines’
Ready to party all night



“gay” is the one who finished cleaning his house
On the couch, with his partner to his right



Every person you ask will give a reply
That they base on the experience they know
And each answer you get, it will be correct
So I guess that this just goes to show
No one definition can fit the answer
And ya know what, that’s fine, it’s okay
So the next time someone should ask that question
Look up and smile and say “I’m what it means to be gay.”

[CellarDweller]

Drained

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Is it morning already
the start of a new day
but I'm sure it will be a repeat
so why bother getting up
I'll let myself recharge
after last night

a very different face
in my usual place
so I approached him
and opened myself up
made my impression
gave him some laughs
thought there was a connection
and took him back to my place

today I wake up
and find that he's gone
alone in the bed, again
I'm finding myself emotionally drained
after another familiar night
with an unfamiliar face
his image in my brain
but his name escapes me

why do I do this to myself
lonely nights that are too quiet
only to do a 180, and bring someone home
to find out he was a psychic vampire
sucking my heart dry of emotions
using me for his amusement
and then leaving before the sun comes up
an empty spot on the bed
and an empty shell laying next to it

I want to find a partner
but instead find myself a "trick"
waking up empty after giving away
my emotions, laughs, intellect and more
in the hopes that he would still be here
and want to learn more about me
It's time to get up
and wash the rejection off me
get through the day and brace myself
for the next lonely night
and try to avoid
being drained once again

[CellarDweller]

The day has arrived. it's happened at last
they signed on the line, the law finally passed
I feel so elated, a joy I never knew
I get to stand up and say out loud, "I Do"
we picked up the tuxes, finalized the plan
and now all that is left, is to marry my man
shined up the boots, buttoned the vest
my hat is on right, I must look my best
here comes the limo, to take me to the hall
my friends and my family, they're here, one and all
it feels like forever, we've waited a long while
and now I get to, walk up the center aisle
he's standing there waiting, my special guy
I'm feeling so nervous, I'm starting to cry
under the trellis, the priest's speaking now
we look at each other, reciting our vows
it's passing so quickly, put the rings on our hands
nothing too fancy, just simple gold bands
and then we lean forward, our first married kiss
it feels like we've waited forever for this
the priest turns and smiles, releases a dove
it's happened, I've married the man that I love

[CellarDweller]

You think you're so clever
but what you don't see
is how people see you
when you try to slap me
do I cringe, do I cry
your comments are null
you try to be cutting
but your edge is quite dull
carry on if you must
get it all off your chest
think you can insult me
it's been done by the best
guess what, I'm still here
and those people did fail
and when compared to them
your actions do pale
so go on, act the child
step to me and disrespect
your silly little comments
truly have no effect
but if it makes you feel better
than do as you must
I'll give my attention
to those I love and I trust.