07-29-2009, 10:32 PM
I need to vent. This seems to be generally what I use this forum for, and for that I apologise; however this is one of the few places I can vent without risk of upsetting someone.
I left my old job, the one with the 70,0000 hours a week, for a new trainign job where I could get some more qualifications. I am now thoroughly bored and even more skint. My qualifications seem as far away as ever and did I mention how bored I am?
At the new job I managed to make a rather large whoopsie a few weeks back by getting extremely drunk and sleeping with a (supposedly straight) girl who I work with. I don't really like her, at all, and I'm not out to any of my work colleagues so that sort of hangs over me (on the plus side it hangs over her as well!). Oh, and to add insult to injury the bitch bit me (apparently that counts as foreplay in her twisted little mind) and I ended up on antibiotics for it!!
I have an incredibly overwhelming crush on a straight guy I work with (henceforth known as TSG - the straight guy - due to the pure novelty of actually knowing someone straight!!). I cannot stop thinking about him, sometimes in extremely innapropriate places at very innapropriate times!! He is a really nice guy and we are pretty good friends but I have tried to push it further twice and have been met with firstly 'I can't even think about a relationship at the moment' and 'I'm just not there yet'. WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT MEAN?????? If he'd told me I was a minger but thanks for trying I could understand. Does anyone out there speak straight?? On the pluss side he has been well and truly decent about me being rather forward (and once, rather drunkenly so!) and it hasn't changed our working or friend relationship at all so far as I can tell.
I haven't managed to ride side saddle (my current 'big thing') or go to London or see most of my best friends for over 4 months now :frown: and this week I am a glorified babysitter with kids galore coming for 'Pony Week' where their parents dump them on me for 4 days.
I'm still wrestling with the issue of coming out. I still amintain that I have no need or wish to come out to my parents untill/unless I meet a woman with whom I become seriously involved. However not being out at work is starting to frustrate me somewhat but I am not sure how well it would go down (for example an overheard conversation between 2 colleagues about a woman they had met the night before, 'you do know she's into women don't you?' 'Eugh thats disgusting, I thought she was a bit too friendly'). I know I don't like the job but it is a necessary evil for the qulaifications at the moment so don't really want to alienate workmates!
So, there is my grump and moan. If you made it this far please have a pat on the back/wine/JD/cookies/hagen dazs/whatever suits! I feel a little better for having written this down and now I'm off to give my pillow some head and my duvet some ass.
I left my old job, the one with the 70,0000 hours a week, for a new trainign job where I could get some more qualifications. I am now thoroughly bored and even more skint. My qualifications seem as far away as ever and did I mention how bored I am?
At the new job I managed to make a rather large whoopsie a few weeks back by getting extremely drunk and sleeping with a (supposedly straight) girl who I work with. I don't really like her, at all, and I'm not out to any of my work colleagues so that sort of hangs over me (on the plus side it hangs over her as well!). Oh, and to add insult to injury the bitch bit me (apparently that counts as foreplay in her twisted little mind) and I ended up on antibiotics for it!!
I have an incredibly overwhelming crush on a straight guy I work with (henceforth known as TSG - the straight guy - due to the pure novelty of actually knowing someone straight!!). I cannot stop thinking about him, sometimes in extremely innapropriate places at very innapropriate times!! He is a really nice guy and we are pretty good friends but I have tried to push it further twice and have been met with firstly 'I can't even think about a relationship at the moment' and 'I'm just not there yet'. WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT MEAN?????? If he'd told me I was a minger but thanks for trying I could understand. Does anyone out there speak straight?? On the pluss side he has been well and truly decent about me being rather forward (and once, rather drunkenly so!) and it hasn't changed our working or friend relationship at all so far as I can tell.
I haven't managed to ride side saddle (my current 'big thing') or go to London or see most of my best friends for over 4 months now :frown: and this week I am a glorified babysitter with kids galore coming for 'Pony Week' where their parents dump them on me for 4 days.
I'm still wrestling with the issue of coming out. I still amintain that I have no need or wish to come out to my parents untill/unless I meet a woman with whom I become seriously involved. However not being out at work is starting to frustrate me somewhat but I am not sure how well it would go down (for example an overheard conversation between 2 colleagues about a woman they had met the night before, 'you do know she's into women don't you?' 'Eugh thats disgusting, I thought she was a bit too friendly'). I know I don't like the job but it is a necessary evil for the qulaifications at the moment so don't really want to alienate workmates!
So, there is my grump and moan. If you made it this far please have a pat on the back/wine/JD/cookies/hagen dazs/whatever suits! I feel a little better for having written this down and now I'm off to give my pillow some head and my duvet some ass.