10-29-2009, 06:16 AM
So i lost my anal virginity last night. I really still can't believe it happened and it just sucks cause i haven't been able to talk to anyone about it. so yeah... but his name is joe we had met a couple of times before and had a good time together. apparently He decided to come out last week to all of his friends. It was supposedly because he had met and really liked me and was finally like "fuck it"... idk but we just hung out that night at his house with friends drinking gin and playing jenga (awesome combo!) and i couldn't get enough of him. he's just is always making jokes. I love a guy who can hold a great conversation and my attention. so one drink turns into 2 and 3 and 5 and whatever. we ended up alone talking and he just asked me about my past with guys. I didn't lie but i also stayed quite about some things to make myself sound more experienced. thats one thing i really like about him is that he is so new to all of this just like me. but we just sat laughing in the hall with our gin/tonics smoking and laughing. then I just stared into his blue eyes and we started kissing. after that we were inseparable for the rest of the night. when bed time came... well i won't get to detailed but one thing led to another and our clothes were gone. we agreed we wanted to so yeah... we did it hurt at first. i just kept saying easy easy but once i relaxed it was amazing. I have been dreaming about doing this for... a long time idk just felt so right, good, amazing, overwhelming.... really more than i ever thought hoped dreamed for. afterwards we showered together and i slept so well! We talked today and I should get to see him tomorrow. but yeah im just so excited and everything is so new and different and... amazing. idk i just really wish i had a friend i could talk to about all of this.