12-09-2009, 05:09 AM
When I was young, I thought girls didn't have sex until they got married. And boys had sex with prostitutes until they got married.
Even when I was in mid 20's, I thought like that. So stupid...
Everytime I dated girls, I tried my best NOT to fuck her. I even told them,
"Don't be nervous, I'm not trying to have sex with you."
NO wonder they thought I was gay.
But that's just how I was. Until I found out that everyone was having sex except me.
And it was so fucking difficult... I hated girls... I could never get comfortable with them...
I wish I was gay since 16. Then I would have been able to live my young adolecent life, free from fear of females. How to talk to them. How to say hello. How to ask for numbers.
How to look good to THEM.
I was pleasing the wrong crowd.
Whoever told me being gay was a bad thing? I would shoot him if I knew.
Oh well... life goes on... better late than never.
Even when I was in mid 20's, I thought like that. So stupid...
Everytime I dated girls, I tried my best NOT to fuck her. I even told them,
"Don't be nervous, I'm not trying to have sex with you."
NO wonder they thought I was gay.
But that's just how I was. Until I found out that everyone was having sex except me.
And it was so fucking difficult... I hated girls... I could never get comfortable with them...
I wish I was gay since 16. Then I would have been able to live my young adolecent life, free from fear of females. How to talk to them. How to say hello. How to ask for numbers.
How to look good to THEM.
I was pleasing the wrong crowd.
Whoever told me being gay was a bad thing? I would shoot him if I knew.
Oh well... life goes on... better late than never.