01-28-2010, 07:14 AM
I was pondering my sexuality.
And have come to no certain conclusion.
You see, I'm not in the slightest, attracted to men.
Yet, I can hardly stand to be around women.
But I do so love a woman's body.
I also have great desires for a woman's body to include a nice penis.
I enjoy masturbating with my vast assortment of anal toys.
I love to play with them anally and orally. And sometimes in that order.
And when I watch porn, I find myself totally focusing on the man's penis.
My favorite part (what makes me ejaculate) is the facial or cum shot, if you will.
I often have cravings to be the face in such scenes.
I have found she-male porn to somewhat ease my desires.
But the quality is most often too low, or the actors are just not very attractive or the action is just lame.
I hardly ever see them performing in a manner that mainstream porn does so well.
I guess the director says "hey we got chicks with dicks, what else you need".
Don't get me wrong, I have seen many she-males in films that were hotter than most women, I've seen.
So bottom line, am I gay?
I've never had sex with a man, but I don't see where that defines anything.
Should the answer be defined by my non-existent attraction for men?
Or my overwhelming attraction for their penis?
I just don't know. You tell me.
And have come to no certain conclusion.
You see, I'm not in the slightest, attracted to men.
Yet, I can hardly stand to be around women.
But I do so love a woman's body.
I also have great desires for a woman's body to include a nice penis.
I enjoy masturbating with my vast assortment of anal toys.
I love to play with them anally and orally. And sometimes in that order.
And when I watch porn, I find myself totally focusing on the man's penis.
My favorite part (what makes me ejaculate) is the facial or cum shot, if you will.
I often have cravings to be the face in such scenes.
I have found she-male porn to somewhat ease my desires.
But the quality is most often too low, or the actors are just not very attractive or the action is just lame.
I hardly ever see them performing in a manner that mainstream porn does so well.
I guess the director says "hey we got chicks with dicks, what else you need".
Don't get me wrong, I have seen many she-males in films that were hotter than most women, I've seen.
So bottom line, am I gay?
I've never had sex with a man, but I don't see where that defines anything.
Should the answer be defined by my non-existent attraction for men?
Or my overwhelming attraction for their penis?
I just don't know. You tell me.