06-19-2010, 07:51 AM
Basically I meet a guy last night. I did make it perfectly clear be for hand that I was just looking for mates and that's it. I was driving so only had the one. But then really wonted another as I never meet anyone from on line be for and was very navours. This was at the guys home where we where just playing music and talking. He seemed real nice and offered the sofa for the night if I wonted another drink so I did have another and another lol and so on. Think you get the idea. I ended up getting a bit to drunk.
Anyway me and this guy ended up all cuddled up and I told him in conversation that I had done stuff be for with guys but not to much and that I had never kissed a guy be for.
Anyway we ended up kissing. It was nice and then we ended up later doing a lot moor stuff.
Am really kinder shocked with myself that Ive ended up doing this with a guy I never meet be for. This not me and am still shaking even though am back at home now.
Think I was just really really enjoying being all hugged up why watching a film together.
Ive not felt like that for a long time and that did feel good to have that with him.
I think he wants to see me again. He seems nice but am not sure if I wont a relationship with this guy. I have told him that my head is all over the place atm and Ive made no promises to him but even so I think I might end up hurting him.
So even though I have had a good time and even kissed a guy for the first time and God that was nice lol But am confused to shit about where I go from here and I think I do wont a BF. Just I don't think its with this guy even though he is very nice and less then 3 years in age part us.
I think its cos he doesn't really like to go anywhere. I am not the most out going guy that I know but I do like weekends away and days out not just stuck in a smoky flat. I don't smoke and he dose and I think also that kinder puts me off a bit as well. Still he may have had fag breath but he was still a nice kisser
And god am still shaking which is starting to do my head in now!
Anyway me and this guy ended up all cuddled up and I told him in conversation that I had done stuff be for with guys but not to much and that I had never kissed a guy be for.
Anyway we ended up kissing. It was nice and then we ended up later doing a lot moor stuff.
Am really kinder shocked with myself that Ive ended up doing this with a guy I never meet be for. This not me and am still shaking even though am back at home now.
Think I was just really really enjoying being all hugged up why watching a film together.
Ive not felt like that for a long time and that did feel good to have that with him.
I think he wants to see me again. He seems nice but am not sure if I wont a relationship with this guy. I have told him that my head is all over the place atm and Ive made no promises to him but even so I think I might end up hurting him.
So even though I have had a good time and even kissed a guy for the first time and God that was nice lol But am confused to shit about where I go from here and I think I do wont a BF. Just I don't think its with this guy even though he is very nice and less then 3 years in age part us.
I think its cos he doesn't really like to go anywhere. I am not the most out going guy that I know but I do like weekends away and days out not just stuck in a smoky flat. I don't smoke and he dose and I think also that kinder puts me off a bit as well. Still he may have had fag breath but he was still a nice kisser
And god am still shaking which is starting to do my head in now!