08-01-2010, 08:29 PM
So I just need to let off.
Someone who I thought was a dear friend (someone who I once dated, and has also put me through one hell of a lot of shit and pain), has decided he does not want to know me anymore. He says this is for my benefit since he only hurts me. It is very complex, but long story short, he said
"I probably will miss you for the first bit, but as time goes on I'll get over it". <<<< fucking OUCH
I know this is probably
A) to protect his feelings
B) because he is numb and can't do his own feelings
C) because he thinks the only way to tell me that im better off without him, is to do it in a nasty way so that I dont invest my feelings in him anymore - thus in the long run doing me a favour...
But fuck. That fucking hurt. Him and I have been through a lot together and I truly value him in my life, despite how much he has hurt me because I have tried to see through that to the person I know him to be inside...because of this he has told me in the past that I was the first person in a LONG while to make him feel HUMAN. But trying to get him to empathise and FEEL with me is like trying to get blood out of a stone...when all I can do is bleed endlessly. It hurts
Someone who I thought was a dear friend (someone who I once dated, and has also put me through one hell of a lot of shit and pain), has decided he does not want to know me anymore. He says this is for my benefit since he only hurts me. It is very complex, but long story short, he said
"I probably will miss you for the first bit, but as time goes on I'll get over it". <<<< fucking OUCH
I know this is probably
A) to protect his feelings
B) because he is numb and can't do his own feelings
C) because he thinks the only way to tell me that im better off without him, is to do it in a nasty way so that I dont invest my feelings in him anymore - thus in the long run doing me a favour...
But fuck. That fucking hurt. Him and I have been through a lot together and I truly value him in my life, despite how much he has hurt me because I have tried to see through that to the person I know him to be inside...because of this he has told me in the past that I was the first person in a LONG while to make him feel HUMAN. But trying to get him to empathise and FEEL with me is like trying to get blood out of a stone...when all I can do is bleed endlessly. It hurts