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My fantasies involved guys not girls. Simple as that really.
Fred
Life is what happens while you are busy making other plans.
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I didn't necessarily "know" when in elementary school, but I knew I was different. I mainly had guy friends and did guy things, but there was that gay streak in me that would lean feminine. I loved being around girls during a time when girls had "coodies", and I'd listen to girly music. I also had a huge collection of beanie babies/stuffed animals while all the other boys were into hotwheels and batman.
It wasn't until I was probably 12 when I finally figured out that I that I was mesmerized by the male physique.
I remember the first time I actually tried looking for gay porn- I was so nervous, and I was literally shaking. It was a whole other side of me that I never looked into.... Plus my mother/brother could of walked in at any moment.
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I noticed at about 13/14 in the changing rooms that some guys had nice asses and then occasionally glanced at the penis (in the usually way), then when I found porn I headed to the gay sections. Then when I was about 16 I fell for a guy, it just happened, from friends we kissed etc and then we dated; probably the biggest sexual self discovery ever as I found out everything with him. I also tried dating a girl to be all "I'm not gay" but gave in to my true feelings.
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for me it wasn't like i didn't ever not know. I've always been attracted to both, even since i was a romatisizing little kid who dreamed of bieng married one day. I knew i was "different" because i was raised in a private xian school, and around the age of 13 i wrapped my head around "sexuality" and realized i was termed "bisexual."
How do i know? i have always felt the same compassion, the same drive, and lust, for both sexes, there was no secret to it, to me at least.
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I was best friends with a boy in school that lived right down the street from me. When we hit puberty we became curious and started experimenting. Him and I fooled around and had sex on and off for four years. When I was 18 I ran back into the closet because I thought being gay was wrong in gods eyes. I did the church thing for awhile and tryed to live a straight life. I failed to find a girlfriend and settle down to have kids. I thought I was straight but fantasized about guys off and on. I also watched gay porn on occassion along with straight porn. One day I realized I was watching mostly gay porn and wasnt really interested in straight porn no more. I came out of the closet right before my 28th birthday and accepted myself as bisexual/gay.
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