I lost it!!!
12-23-2010, 12:10 AM
Okay, so here goes my story ... ahh!
I have been in a relationship for 4 years now, "with a girl" love her with all my heart, but at the same time battling the ideas of men and me being gay. I was just wanting to figure everything out but didn't want to cheat .. well here is my story
Okay so this happened two nights ago! I met a guy at a party, well more of a get together with some friends, we were just sitting next to each other, doing the usual chit chat "bullshit" stuff, and we were drinking. So, after a while he was like are you interested in coming over to watch a movie and drink a little or whatever, his roomies were having people over, I said sure why not. "I did not know he was gay" nor was he out, nor does he act it .... we watched "the town", ah such a badass movie, so I was about to leave and I had a flat tire, "UGH" so I called him and was like "yo, bro is it alright if I were to crash here, my tire is flat blah blah blah" He was like yeah bro, not a problem. So I went back inside and he was like you can sleep in my bed, I'll crash on the floor, since some other people were crashing on the couch. I said alright, we were both laying in his bed watching some TV show, and next thing I know he grabs my leg. I literally was so shocked, I looked at him and said "uhm what are you doing" .. he goes OMG I am so sorry, I said nah it's cool, don't worry. He stopped, and about five minutes later he did it again, I looked at him and said are you gay? and he was like "please don't kill me" I said why would I, nothing is wrong with being gay, blah blah blah ... he was like I have been with one guy, just gave head, I am not out, "were both athletes on the college campus" please don't out me, I explained my story and issues and next thing I know, he is making out with me and I am getting butterflies, it was like I was falling in love all over again. So I obviously went along with it and didn't stop, next thing my dick is out and hes stroking and sucking me slowly, I was so hard and hot, I pulled his cock out and just shoved it in my mouth, and I almost cried because right then and there I knew ... I was "GAY" I just knew it, I enjoyed it so much plus the fact that when we were kissing I was getting butterflies. I just knew .. so we 69 for a little, and he was fingering me, which semi hurt and then he said I know you have NEVER done this let alone be with a guy but wanna try anal, I was hesitant but I said yes. He got a condom out, lubed me up and his cock and slowly entered. I almost died hahaha, it hurt a little but after 5 minutes I was loving it ... we ended up cumming and then cuddling and semi talking about the issues.
We both starting crying a little, and it felt bittersweet .. glad it happened, now I am talking with him more, obviously it's only 2 days old but we will see where it goes. I am planning on coming out to some people within the month and see how it goes. I ended it with the women I love ... I told her who I was and she said it's alright I've known, I asked how and she said "GaySpeak" and gay porn and stuff I left on my computer, and she said NO STRAIGHT man puts half naked men on their wallpaper ... haha, it ended well.
BUT SO GLAD
I have been in a relationship for 4 years now, "with a girl" love her with all my heart, but at the same time battling the ideas of men and me being gay. I was just wanting to figure everything out but didn't want to cheat .. well here is my story
Okay so this happened two nights ago! I met a guy at a party, well more of a get together with some friends, we were just sitting next to each other, doing the usual chit chat "bullshit" stuff, and we were drinking. So, after a while he was like are you interested in coming over to watch a movie and drink a little or whatever, his roomies were having people over, I said sure why not. "I did not know he was gay" nor was he out, nor does he act it .... we watched "the town", ah such a badass movie, so I was about to leave and I had a flat tire, "UGH" so I called him and was like "yo, bro is it alright if I were to crash here, my tire is flat blah blah blah" He was like yeah bro, not a problem. So I went back inside and he was like you can sleep in my bed, I'll crash on the floor, since some other people were crashing on the couch. I said alright, we were both laying in his bed watching some TV show, and next thing I know he grabs my leg. I literally was so shocked, I looked at him and said "uhm what are you doing" .. he goes OMG I am so sorry, I said nah it's cool, don't worry. He stopped, and about five minutes later he did it again, I looked at him and said are you gay? and he was like "please don't kill me" I said why would I, nothing is wrong with being gay, blah blah blah ... he was like I have been with one guy, just gave head, I am not out, "were both athletes on the college campus" please don't out me, I explained my story and issues and next thing I know, he is making out with me and I am getting butterflies, it was like I was falling in love all over again. So I obviously went along with it and didn't stop, next thing my dick is out and hes stroking and sucking me slowly, I was so hard and hot, I pulled his cock out and just shoved it in my mouth, and I almost cried because right then and there I knew ... I was "GAY" I just knew it, I enjoyed it so much plus the fact that when we were kissing I was getting butterflies. I just knew .. so we 69 for a little, and he was fingering me, which semi hurt and then he said I know you have NEVER done this let alone be with a guy but wanna try anal, I was hesitant but I said yes. He got a condom out, lubed me up and his cock and slowly entered. I almost died hahaha, it hurt a little but after 5 minutes I was loving it ... we ended up cumming and then cuddling and semi talking about the issues.
We both starting crying a little, and it felt bittersweet .. glad it happened, now I am talking with him more, obviously it's only 2 days old but we will see where it goes. I am planning on coming out to some people within the month and see how it goes. I ended it with the women I love ... I told her who I was and she said it's alright I've known, I asked how and she said "GaySpeak" and gay porn and stuff I left on my computer, and she said NO STRAIGHT man puts half naked men on their wallpaper ... haha, it ended well.
BUT SO GLAD
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mile:
. Second of all, that is... so sweet. Congratulations 
