Need Your Guys Help & Support,

[RockerBlocks]

Hi Guys, So I'm Basicly Gonna Tell You My Life Story And How I Feel So Welcomed To Be Around People Like You Guys,

You See In School Before High School Hit I Had Lots Of Friends, I Had Girls,Guys, And All That But When I Hit High School Everyones Vocies Droped And Everyone Could Tell I Was Gay, My Vocie Didn't Drop, It Went Higher, So I Dealt With High School Bullying For 4 Years, And The Fitih Yeah I Was Like Well Screw This, And Lost Faith In Myself And Droped Out, I Live In This Tiny Small Town Where There Is So Much Hate Towards Me, To Me? I've Done Nothing Wrong!, I Went Through A Stage Where Everytime I Went Out I Was Scared, Still Am To Be Excat, Life Aint Always Easy My Dad Has Told Me That, But I Didn't Think That By Me Being Nice, I'm Automaticly Considered As 'That Fag', I've Tryed All Diffrent Kind Of Things,Street Dancing, Which I'm Quiting, Too Much Hate, Too Much Drama, Just Enough Of It, My Only REAL Best Friend Is My Mother, And She Can't Even Help Me Get Over This, Sometimes I Go Into This State Where I Think To Myself, Why Am I On Earth? Why Am I Who I Am?, I'm Sure Everyone Has Asked Themselfs That, But Anyway Back To The Point,

I Wanna Get Into A Course, Hair Dressing, Dancing , Anything That I Can Be Myself, And I Backed Out At The Last Second, Very Immature Of Myself, I'd Love To Have Close Friends Like You Guys, Cause In All Seriousness, I Don't Have Any Friends, At All..., Lost Two Friends And I Was Trying To Play It Safe, They Would Always Be Like " I Hate Gays, Stupid Fags Etc', And You Know That Just Cut Me Down More And More, Until I Told Them, They Hated Me Straight Away, I'm A Desprate Teen, And I'm Blessed To Be Around You All, And I'd Love To Get Some Help And Advice, Thank You, Hugs & Kisses, - Jesse

[Alex2011]

i know what you mean man. i feel the same way. being happy is looked down upon . i hate society

[jbrowder24]

Sorry to hear this all guys. Being lonely is an awful feeling.

I think finishing your degree or otherwise taking some sort of course would be a good idea. It will give you something positive to focus on; if you learn skills it'll be easier to move elsewhere where you can start new and perhaps find new friends; and perhaps even in your courses you'd meet new friends. I'm not sure about there but in my experience, straight girls are often more accepting than straight men, though there of course are exceptions on both sides of that.

Small towns are very hard. There's less diversity and thus less open-mindedness. That's not to say you won't encounter hard times somewhere bigger, but small towns can feel very isolating. Trying to make friends places like this is a good start... even if many of us are too far to meet, you know that you are not alone in the world, and it will help motivate you to work on moving somewhere.

Be sure to look up videos and such from the It Gets Better project.... skip the celebs, and go to the real gays that have been through hardships and have had life get better.

[James]

Ahh another friend from down under, yes life can be tough, the high school years are the worse. Does it get better yes not quickly but it does get better. We have walked that path as others have, if u need help in australia , I do have a good friend in sydney and one on the west coast, hang in there, get your education cause that is the key to sucess, and by all means talk to everyone here cause they do care, James

[toomuch45]

Hi Guys, So I'm Basicly Gonna Tell You My Life Story And How I Feel So Welcomed To Be Around People Like You Guys,

You See In School Before High School Hit I Had Lots Of Friends, I Had Girls,Guys, And All That But When I Hit High School Everyones Vocies Droped And Everyone Could Tell I Was Gay, My Vocie Didn't Drop, It Went Higher, So I Dealt With High School Bullying For 4 Years, And The Fitih Yeah I Was Like Well Screw This, And Lost Faith In Myself And Droped Out, I Live In This Tiny Small Town Where There Is So Much Hate Towards Me, To Me? I've Done Nothing Wrong!, I Went Through A Stage Where Everytime I Went Out I Was Scared, Still Am To Be Excat, Life Aint Always Easy My Dad Has Told Me That, But I Didn't Think That By Me Being Nice, I'm Automaticly Considered As 'That Fag', I've Tryed All Diffrent Kind Of Things,Street Dancing, Which I'm Quiting, Too Much Hate, Too Much Drama, Just Enough Of It, My Only REAL Best Friend Is My Mother, And She Can't Even Help Me Get Over This, Sometimes I Go Into This State Where I Think To Myself, Why Am I On Earth? Why Am I Who I Am?, I'm Sure Everyone Has Asked Themselfs That, But Anyway Back To The Point,

I Wanna Get Into A Course, Hair Dressing, Dancing , Anything That I Can Be Myself, And I Backed Out At The Last Second, Very Immature Of Myself, I'd Love To Have Close Friends Like You Guys, Cause In All Seriousness, I Don't Have Any Friends, At All..., Lost Two Friends And I Was Trying To Play It Safe, They Would Always Be Like " I Hate Gays, Stupid Fags Etc', And You Know That Just Cut Me Down More And More, Until I Told Them, They Hated Me Straight Away, I'm A Desprate Teen, And I'm Blessed To Be Around You All, And I'd Love To Get Some Help And Advice, Thank You, Hugs & Kisses, - Jesse

i do feel bad jesse im lonely too so your not alone that has happened to me plenty of times i want to be myself as well but you know something F those folks who are not your friends cause you have us. and im here for you if you want to pm to me about anything just let me knowmile:

[Kiid]

I gives you a big squishy hug!
*SQUISHY!*
I know what it is like to be isolated and have little to no friends. I was the opposite to you. I had no friends and then I figure out who I am and I have friends. If I ever come to your town I'll be sure to come hang with you!

[simon]

love your avatar btw mile:

it's a hard one to comment on because we are not in your town,I would go back to your course,it will get you skills so you can earn your own money,and maybe move when you feel you want to,in my experience the people at colleges are more open minded and come from a wide area so are less single minded as a small town,if you did your hairdressing or what ever course I bet you would not be the only gay there too,as for living in the town,again without knowing your town,people can pickup the fact that you might feel scared so you could be making it that bit easier for them to pick on you,it's the same with bullys,if they see what they are doing is having an effect they will continue with it,so try and not show it bothers you,go out,do your course,you need to stop thinking what they think of you and just live how you want,they are, so why can't you.

[marshlander]

Sorry to hear you are feeling so isolated. I find it hard to remember what we did in the days before the www.

If you can bring yourself to do it, finishing your education sounds like a good idea and then perhaps moving to a bigger place where you can begin to build a life for yourself amongst people who don't know what has happened in the past. Whichever way you go is not going to be easy, but many people from small communities seem to have found some relief in relocating to a larger place.

Good luck.

(ps Your message took me at least twice as long to read as it normally should. Would you mind not putting capital letters on every word, please? Thanks )

[stu]

Other peoples advice seems about right to me. People your age can be quite cruel, try to make some gay friends your own age this site is a good start. It might seem like hard work but try to put the effort in to make things better for yourself. I know other people can easily make it seem it's not worthwhile but it is.

[RockerBlocks]

Well, Thank you all for your amazing advice i really love the feedback truely, and i now know what my game plan is and what i'm going to do, you guys are amazing really, Thank you so much, ♥