Thought I knew what I was...

[Tyrannosaur]

Here's the deal:
I've been dating my girlfriend for about 3+ years. I love her to pieces. Originally, I assumed I was bi. Recently, I'm second guessing myself.
In bed, my gf does me in the butt w/ a strapon... Before dating, anal masturbation was the norm for me... But, i always liked girls.
Recently, my friend brought over a flamingly gay guy over (his friend). He has the voice, he looks soft, the works.
When we got to talking, I started getting all shy. Honestly, I think he's terribly cute (i'd even go as far as calling him hot.) This is where I started questioning myself.
Beforehand, in high-school, i slept with a boy twice.... he was also soft.
Now, I have those feelings coming back all over again. The worst part is, they're stronger than when girls come to mind.
At this point, I'm unsure of my orientation!

p.s..... I love traps and tranny porn... I've also considered getting boobs before.
p.p.s....... I sometimes consider myself a woman in bed.... even going as far as completely cross-dressing and visualizing myself as a legit big-breasted, round-hipped tranny in bed w/ my gf. (i'd never want a sex change or want to be a woman)

please help!

As a side note,

I honestly can't see myself dating a boy.. ever. I've thought it over many times and it just seems awkward!

I honestly am madly in love with my gf.. we do everything together... have mad hot intimate sex... and she's my best friend too. I would honestly be devastated if we were to break up.. Very heartbroken.

The whole awkwardness of dating a boy is probably the biggest deterrent i have. I've never done it and probably will never have the balls to do it either!

[jdawg903]

I'm in a similar situation. I don't really see guys as dating material, but I've never been with a chic just cause I'm so awkward and bad at talking to them and I get really nervous. Men are just easier for me to talk to and so I've fooled around a bunch of times with them. I'm more attracted to girls and not really into dudes so much but its all I seem to be capable of getting lol. I really want to get with a girl though and really figure out what I am. I don't think I'll know what I am until I try it out with a girl and so I'd give you the same advice.

I think if you ever break up with your girlfriend then you should explore that part of you and try dating a guy and see what happens. Otherwise you dont wanna risk the special connection you and her have for a fling on the side. Not worth it.

[Tyrannosaur]

For you, if you can eventually muster up the courage (or you find a dominant, aggressive girl who approaches you), it may o you good to find someone who is open to 3ways n such.. atleast so the two of you can play with a boy from time to time! XD.... Of course, I'm sure many people in our shoes would wish for that!

[runswithscissor]

Wow...before now I never knew how many people just didn't know who they are...and honestly I find it all kind of sad...but in this world it is confusing to know exactly who you are and what you want...but here's what I say from my "ghostly vantage point"...it sounds like everyone who posted on this thread is gay...cause ya know that old expression if it walks like a duck and quacks like a duck then it's a duck? well, if you're going as far as acting/imagining that you're a female in the bedroom and you think guys are hot/cute/whatever...then you are probably at least bisexual if not full blown gay...you guys are still young...I went through all of that in my late teens/early twenties...I was actually married and have kids...but the pull of who you are will always win over...I'm now divorced and with a man...(me and the ex wife are still very best friends btw)...and just so you know...it's no different dating a guy than dating a girl...we are all just people...you'll have the exact same problems and joys with either gender...good luck guys...and just remember...be who you truly are!

[jdawg903]

your right man, still trying to figure this out but i need to get with a girl though, it would suck if I stay with a man and then realize im actually straight lol. I guess it could work both ways.

A threesome with another guy and and a chic would be great actually. Would be fun and help me figure it out too.

[Tyrannosaur]

Ugh, I wish it wasn't such a huge decision! As of now, I'm perfectly happy with my girfriend.. we enjoy gender play in bed too! Hell, we're even considering taking a holiday where she dresses me as a convincing girl and we go out into public, dinner, etc.
To be honest, I've been around the block with women many times. However, to put it into simple words; "i want to have her baby" lmao. I honestly think she's "the one". I just don't want to, like you, get married and come out later .

Sadly, some days, I'm unhappy b/c I have feelings for men.. and would like to sleep with men as well. Honestly, if she grew a penis magically over-night and kept the rest of her feminine features, I probably wouldn't be posting this right now.

Maybe the secret is to get her hips to gyrate with the stamina of a man.. haha.... ugh, i hate the confusion and looong thoughts about all this

[runswithscissor]

Not to be blunt...but you just said you wished your gf could magically grow a penis...wow, you're gay dude...lol...the hardest part is just coming out...once you've admitted it to yourself you'll feel much better!

[Tyrannosaur]

ugh.. i know you're right.... It's just SOO HARD TO DO!

[runswithscissor]

Honestly man...it's not...I mean, idk your background, family, religion or any of that...but it's you that's blocking you from doing it...you are semi happy with you gf but wish she was a man...imagine how happy you could be with her as your bff and a man as your bf?...most people will be more accepting than you know...being gay or bi or straight doesn't define your character or who you are...just who you wanna get it on with...lol

[Tyrannosaur]

guh... But i'd still wanna have sex with her... lol. That's where shit'd get complicated!