I cut my self to feel alive,
I need to or I will die,
Deeper and deeper every time,
The blood runs for longer now.
My wrists are scarred,
My eyes are dry,
I open an old scar up
And wet my dry eyes.
I think I'm getting better,
I'm happy for once,
I'm killing myself slowly,
Ignoring the truth.
It's inevitable,
I'll kill myself one day,
Cut too deep and end my life.
I can't wait.
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That is so dark, Roydon.... are you feeling well?
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Is everything OK?
I'm concerned
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Healing cuts that once were deep,
Formed when life was a junk heap,
Picking now, at the harsh red lines,
Hiding all the warning signs.
Always covered, always hidden,
Telling others is forbidden,
I need to kill this painful soul,
To do that I'll pay any toll.
That's it now, I've hit a wall,
Since then I've begun to fall,
Let someone soon be signified
Or my end may not be dignified.
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I like your writing. keep it up.
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Slash. Rip. Burn.
Now it's my turn.
Rip. Burn. Slash.
To get in on the stash.
Burn. Slash. Rip.
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Lost in labels,
Torn apart.
Torn asunder
With a bust heart.
Losing touch,
And humanity.
Faded away
With no sanity.
Losing colour,
Turning grey.
'What am I
If I'm not gay?'
It's not black,
It's not white,
It's not colourful,
And bright, but
We have black and
White and grey and
Purple for pride,
Pride that's not gay.
Our flag
Has stripes,
like yours.
Not
Red
Orange
Yellow
Green
Blue
Purple, but
Black
Grey
White
Purple.
Alright?
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A restriction,
A cross,
A barrier from life.
A block has been
Put here by Jesus Christ.
They keep us down,
They disagree,
They don't want us
To live lives fully.
They hate expression,
Freedom,
Our rights.
They don't want
Us to win these fights.
They are extremists,
Neo-nazis,
Homophobes,
The new KKK.
They are the ones
Who say
Gay is not okay.
Their will is suppressive,
I feel oppressed,
'Gay rights are human rights.'
Opposing what they suggest.
I hate them,
I fear them all,
I just want a life,
Why is that their call?
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i frigggin love Otep
I had this dream...
Where I woke up
To a grand commotion.
And uhm... I just jumped from the blankets
And whipped the door from its lock,
And rush blindly into the blackness of the hallway.
But there, on all sides
Lying next to each other
Were rows and rows of executioners...
Some were shirtless and __
And throbbing with anticipation.
Sweat delicatley sneaking through their body hair
All were hooded
Some like seventeenth century guillotine henchemen
Others had crudely made hoods
Like scarecrows or ripped ski masks
With slobber from their clenching jaws
And some had burlap masks that looked like they were made of human skin.
Each one held a weapon.
Large mallets
Crudely fashioned axes
And large clubs
Pipes
But I wasn't compelled to retreat.
No.
I was forced to move between them.
Past their swinging weapons
The clubs
The bats
The slicing tools
The shovels
The large and small axes
Boards with nails, staples and razorblades embedded in them
Taking the beating,
Falling down,
Getting up,
Again and again and again and again
Driven to make it out...
At any cost.
And next,
I stumbled into a... this strange marshy world
Where I was oddly drowning in squirrels and other large, starving rodents.
From above, out on the treetops,
Several dolls fell from the branches
And they were hanging
With nooses made of human hair
They started biting and sucking and trying to feed from me...
Trying to enter my belly and some pushed large needles into my veins and...
And as I looked back, some had nails through their hands, torsos and throats.
I was froze.
Dead eyes...
Carbonized...
As I kicked them away
I could see all around me...
Of piles and piles of dead sea life.
Large fish, smelly crustaceans, __
And their soulless empty bodies whispered
A secret language I couldn't decipher but somehow understood.
And their cries were
"Feed me... feed me..."
They wanted me to devour those around them
Chew them up into pieces
And smear them inside their mouths.
And as I turned around
I could see the shape of a woman
Perfect...
Perfectly erotic
Squatting over a pile of these dead things...
And as I ran to her and said "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?!"
And she had no face
And she turned to glass
And suddently cracked
And then exploded into 1000 pieces at my feet.
And just as I took a quick breath,
This world was shoved and desimated
But an intruding tidal wave
Of microorganisms, exploding atoms...
And suddenly moon rose...
Frightened, aching, and alone...
And that's what I remember most...
...The ache.
I can't escape
The ache.......
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another otep song. this is eat the children
Hush little baby
Don’t make a sound
Hush little baby
Don’t make a move
This is gonna hurt
Me more than you
(blood)
If I’m a danger to myself
Just think what I would do to you…
[V1.]
Twisting & turning
My insides are burning
Like larva feeding from the
The pestilence of decadence
I worship my emptiness
I’m ravaged by the damages of this hell
[chorus]
Eat the children raw
Eat the children raw
Eat the children raw
It’s easy to beat
These worms to sleep
Operators are standing by
Some restrictions may apply
Side effects could include
We’ll steal the life right out of you
[V2.]
Descending, unending
& still I’m pretending
I’ve regressed to become one of them
They gave me this affliction
I yield to my addiction
I can’t repress myself
[chorus]
Eat the children raw
Eat the children raw
Eat the children raw
It’s easy to beat
These worms to sleep
Operators are standing by
Some restrictions may apply
Side effects could include
We’ll steal the life right out of you
[bridge]
(blood)
If I’m a danger to myself
Just think what I could do to you…
Role model number one
Taught you how to shave
Role model number two
Took you to the PTA
They tell us how to dress
& teach us to obey
But they never heard a word
That you had to say
For shame.
For shame.
‘cause I am vermin
I’m the anti-christ
Just another lonely chapter
In the book of lies
Don’t they know that they are the prey?
Don’t they know they are the prey?
Don’t they know that they are the prey?
Don’t they know they are the prey?
Don’t they know I’m a predator
Don’t they know they are the prey
Don’t they know I’m a predator
Don’t they know I’m insane? [x2]
[chorus]
Eat the children raw
Eat the children raw
Eat the children raw
It’s easy to beat
These worms to sleep
Operators are standing by
Some restrictions may apply
Side effects could include
We’ll steal the life right out of you
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