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[Musiq]

Alright, so it's been a while since i last posted anything on here.... i guess i should start with saying, i'm not really sure about my own sexuality anymore..... i've been testing it out, the only way i knew how which was obviously looking at both str8 and gay porn. For some reason, and i never realized it before, i cannot seem to really get into the straight porn as i would with, well with the gay stuff

Now im reconsidering, maybe, possibly, i could be more gay than i realized.....


And another thing.... i've been hearing a lot lately that my boyfriend apparently has this crush on this other guy..... granted, i know im his first, so i understand more why, as i was like this myself in my first couple relationships. And yet i can't seem to stop thinking about it, as it's been like that for the past month now. I honestly have no clue as to how to approach the matter of this with him, other than to be direct and to the point.

And i also believe that this could be affecting my own health... i haven't been sleeping all that well, for some reason been feeling more tense lately..... and i dont know why but for these past few months i've been having this rash on my chest, i don't know if it could just my allergies or what not, or if it could be stressed induced.... a lot of other stuff has been going on lately, along with my initial concerns right now. Can i possibly get any advice, at least some insight? I don't really know where or who else to turn to......

[samkyn]

A simple way to test how gay you are is to watch a straight porn film (guy and woman), and check what turns you on watching the guy or the woman.
Sorry cnat help you with realitionship issues, never been in one myself.
But maybe its just a little crush he has (is the other guy hot), if yes then it might just be because of his looks.

[LateBloomer]

Alright, so it's been a while since i last posted anything on here.... i guess i should start with saying, i'm not really sure about my own sexuality anymore..... i've been testing it out, the only way i knew how which was obviously looking at both str8 and gay porn. For some reason, and i never realized it before, i cannot seem to really get into the straight porn as i would with, well with the gay stuff

Now im reconsidering, maybe, possibly, i could be more gay than i realized.....


And another thing.... i've been hearing a lot lately that my boyfriend apparently has this crush on this other guy..... granted, i know im his first, so i understand more why, as i was like this myself in my first couple relationships. And yet i can't seem to stop thinking about it, as it's been like that for the past month now. I honestly have no clue as to how to approach the matter of this with him, other than to be direct and to the point.

And i also believe that this could be affecting my own health... i haven't been sleeping all that well, for some reason been feeling more tense lately..... and i dont know why but for these past few months i've been having this rash on my chest, i don't know if it could just my allergies or what not, or if it could be stressed induced.... a lot of other stuff has been going on lately, along with my initial concerns right now. Can i possibly get any advice, at least some insight? I don't really know where or who else to turn to......

My late teens, early 20s were some of my toughest years. All the old farts tell you it's the best time of your life. Bullshit!

So far, my best years were my 30s. I had the beautiful combination of youth AND experience.

Nobody can say anything here to help you decipher who you truly are, that can only come from inside YOURSELF with TIME. Yes, it's going to be stressful, very very stressful. At times, you'll think you're going crazy.

Just hang in there, I promise you, it WILL all get sorted out eventually. When you're very young you have a "compressed" sense of time. One year feels like an eternity. Believe me, 10 years is NOTHING as you get older.

Just be gentle with yourself and others. Cut yourself some slack. You're going to experience lots of confusion and make some mistake when you were absolutely convinced you were correct. This all credit towards becoming a fully functioning adult. Some of us never learn. Most of us do.

Hope that makes at least a sliver of sense.

[Bowyn Aerrow]

Relationship:

Lust and love are not exclusive in most cases, but then again lust is not an indicator of sexuality.

Having a crush and cheating are two different things. If I beat my partner each time he had a crush, he would be nothing but bruises and broken bones. He tends to 'fall in love' with anything that wears pants (not exclusively male). However he hasn't acted on that....

... I don't think.....

I will, of course, never be 100% certain. But then I have trust. God help him if the day comes where I discover he broke that trust... but then he knows I am particularly fond of the 'Bloody Valentine Song: :biggrin:

Sexual Orientation:
Your sexuality and what you think you are will change over time, until such time you decide 'This is what I am'. A good deal of that will be determined over time and as you more clearly identify what 'gay' 'bi' 'straight' means in your mind. More often than not you will go from seeing merely the sex in homosexual and see the complex emotional aspects.


Rash:
If you are sexually active, do not dismiss this rash as just 'hives'. Unless you have a history of nervous hives, it could be a symptom of something else. Read Syphilis carefully.

http://www.thebody.com/content/art32737.html

Could be and 'what it is' is usually two different things. Unless you know that X causes Y and you have had X before thus have had Y, do not assume that X is something. See a doctor.

[Musiq]

Bowyn Aerrow.... the last time i was ever sexually active was over five months ago..... the rash started at least three months ago, give or take, i don't really remember. And after reading the symptoms for syphilis,, it's not so much a painless sore as just a rash that half the time never stops itching....

[Bowyn Aerrow]

Bowyn Aerrow.... the last time i was ever sexually active was over five months ago..... the rash started at least three months ago, give or take, i don't really remember. And after reading the symptoms for syphilis,, it's not so much a painless sore as just a rash that half the time never stops itching....

Painless sore can be anywhere, rash comes later. Much later in some instances.

"Even without treatment, the lesion will heal in about three weeks. The patient will then develop secondary syphilis, often characterized by a body rash"

Even if it is not an STD, you still need to see a doctor. The fact you have been sexually active (ever) means you really need to talk to doctor about STD's. While you are young and your partners most likely as young... You can't accept on 'faith' that a person hasn't been with someone else.

Just because they SAY they have never been with anyone else, doesn't mean they really haven't been.


Btw the way, you can simply call me Bowyn. Or David... I will answer to either.

[Musiq]

Point taken David.... thanks

[James]

Get checked out to be sure, we all like you here and wish you well, jim