You sound like me sweetlad (or at least what I was like when I was a little younger). You just need to be self-confident. I usually have a hard time talking to people, but in the last couple years I have made many friends at school and at work because I decided to just be myself.
Also, I know what its like to let someone into your life and then they act like a total douchebag... but don't let it get to you. Some are like that, and some aren't. The ones that are like that, you just ignore.
Anyway, instead of looking at the negative things in your life (which is something we all do, but we only seem to focus on them), find your positive attributes and focus on them instead. It does wonders for your spirit.
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I'm charging but very slowly lol...
Well to day I've started making friends with other people in my tutor group at Uni. Two of them are gay (well gay and a lesbian, both older than me), so I think thats a start, I'm starting feel happy with who I am, but I'm still finding it hard to be my self.
I think I'm scared of being my self though.
The only time I ever felt my self was when I first came out (gay) back at college.
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sweet babes never fear nothing hunni.. I am always open and to point about myself and if people never accept it then they can go run and jump
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I am an introvert. I just don't like large groups of people.
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I am pretty much introverted. Until someone gets to know me, they will hardly ever hear me talk or see me do anything. Someone new almost always has to make the first move / say the first words. Introvert/Extrovert personalities pretty much depend on what happens to a person in childhood (as most psychological issues do). I just so happened to be very fat (ok... obese) when I was younger. It wasn't my fault really, I had bad health problems and had to take steroids and they made me blow up like a balloon. My self conciousness from childhood has followed me all the way up until now and I doubt it will ever fade away. Even now that I only way 125 pounds (a very nice weight for a person my age/height) I still feel very sensitive about how people view me (whether it be physical or mental). Somehow, when I was younger, the two became mixed. I suppose this was a good thing in the long run, though. It was probably the major aspect of my life that caused me to be so open to so many things. Wow, that was longer than I meant it to be. Best of wishes to everyone. ^_^
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I spose Im pretty introverted because Ive been alone for a while. Like not just in terms of relationships just that the friends I have have all been transferred and such. I keep to myself alot and its dificult for me to talk to people sometimes because I get nervous or I imply things Idont mean to imply or etc. Like I was staying at a hostel in Ireland and a British fellow asked me if I took milk with my tea and my answer was nervously delivered thesis statement to which he replied "...most people its just yes or no..." So I guess I need to learn how to relax or something.I can be extroverted with people I know and am comfortable with but its not very frequent.
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