11-21-2011, 03:57 AM
Hi all,
I just wanted to share a dream I had couple of nights ago, which shook me pretty much.
Just for some background, these dreams started to pop up after me and my boyfriend had an all night long, nasty and huge fight which ended up in the hospital.
As i am not really ready to discuss the reason or willing the remember the figt itself actually, i can say that we are back to normal. By normal I mean I still cant sleep without him and sometimes him not being with me feels like an legit elephant is sitting on my chest and this weird salty water is usually coming out of my eyes without me doing anything. And we started spending every free time we get together. He even came to see the new twilight movie with me, which I love and he hates
So, after the fight Ive been seeing my ex girlfriend in my dreams, she blames me, still talks about loving me and how i let both of us destroy our relationship. And then, we have sex!
Me and my ex, we were together for five years, and not for once I dreamed about having sex with her. And this really freaks me out. Because we had a clean break up, a lot of crying was included but we never even cursed so much as stupid to each other. We also even had the "break up sex" so after all this time, seeing her in my dream, freaks me out.
Well I think part of the reason I am inclined to see her in my dreams is lately I ve been sleeping alone because my boyfriend has to work extra hard these days, and also he made me delete my ex on my phone, on facebook, on old photo albums etc, so I feel guilty.
And i think the other part is, and also the more realistic part, this fight was a real shock for me, and i am trying to see something wrong in my relationship and comparing it with the old one( we never had a fight, not even one in those five years).
What do you guys think? I really dont think that I have any feelings left for my ex, but seeing her even in dreams is a disturbance, because It makes me feel thet I have not moved on over a long period of time, and makes me feel bad.
I just wanted to share a dream I had couple of nights ago, which shook me pretty much.
Just for some background, these dreams started to pop up after me and my boyfriend had an all night long, nasty and huge fight which ended up in the hospital.
As i am not really ready to discuss the reason or willing the remember the figt itself actually, i can say that we are back to normal. By normal I mean I still cant sleep without him and sometimes him not being with me feels like an legit elephant is sitting on my chest and this weird salty water is usually coming out of my eyes without me doing anything. And we started spending every free time we get together. He even came to see the new twilight movie with me, which I love and he hates
So, after the fight Ive been seeing my ex girlfriend in my dreams, she blames me, still talks about loving me and how i let both of us destroy our relationship. And then, we have sex!
Me and my ex, we were together for five years, and not for once I dreamed about having sex with her. And this really freaks me out. Because we had a clean break up, a lot of crying was included but we never even cursed so much as stupid to each other. We also even had the "break up sex" so after all this time, seeing her in my dream, freaks me out.
Well I think part of the reason I am inclined to see her in my dreams is lately I ve been sleeping alone because my boyfriend has to work extra hard these days, and also he made me delete my ex on my phone, on facebook, on old photo albums etc, so I feel guilty.
And i think the other part is, and also the more realistic part, this fight was a real shock for me, and i am trying to see something wrong in my relationship and comparing it with the old one( we never had a fight, not even one in those five years).
What do you guys think? I really dont think that I have any feelings left for my ex, but seeing her even in dreams is a disturbance, because It makes me feel thet I have not moved on over a long period of time, and makes me feel bad.
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