09-18-2011, 04:14 AM
Gilhooly:
Thanks gilhooly for the compliment. I didn't see that coming. Thanks.
I maybe small but well defined and muscular. I climb my office building's emergency staircase from ground floor to the 30th three times a week. Carrying dumbbells. I used to do it everyday but without dumbbells.
SleepTalker, dfiant and Inchante:
I believe another factor why guys particularly tall and big guys make me nervous is due to my once upon a time 'anti social' life. Five years ago (2005), I was a morbid obese lad. I got bullied a lot during those years.
In order to give 500% towards weight loss, I shut myself from the public for a few years. It was only me, my house and the jogging park. I returned to the society on 2009.
From 2009 - mid 2011, I was a confident guy. I didn't have problem communicating with my colleagues and clients but I became defensive, shy and a bit vulnerable when I was outside of my circle of trusted friends. Flirtation, being approached by guys etc. all these were culture shock to me.
I have drastically improved a lot by mid 2011. Something happened on May/June that pretty much knocked my head off. I am now more open, approachable and spontaneous in public. Admittedly I am still a bit shy towards guys who come and approach me. But not terribly shy as I used to.
Thanks for responding gilhooly, SleepTalker, dfiant and Inchante.
Thanks gilhooly for the compliment. I didn't see that coming. Thanks.
I maybe small but well defined and muscular. I climb my office building's emergency staircase from ground floor to the 30th three times a week. Carrying dumbbells. I used to do it everyday but without dumbbells.
SleepTalker, dfiant and Inchante:
I believe another factor why guys particularly tall and big guys make me nervous is due to my once upon a time 'anti social' life. Five years ago (2005), I was a morbid obese lad. I got bullied a lot during those years.
In order to give 500% towards weight loss, I shut myself from the public for a few years. It was only me, my house and the jogging park. I returned to the society on 2009.
From 2009 - mid 2011, I was a confident guy. I didn't have problem communicating with my colleagues and clients but I became defensive, shy and a bit vulnerable when I was outside of my circle of trusted friends. Flirtation, being approached by guys etc. all these were culture shock to me.
I have drastically improved a lot by mid 2011. Something happened on May/June that pretty much knocked my head off. I am now more open, approachable and spontaneous in public. Admittedly I am still a bit shy towards guys who come and approach me. But not terribly shy as I used to.
Thanks for responding gilhooly, SleepTalker, dfiant and Inchante.