How are you today?

[DeadByDawn]

What happened, honey?

A few things. I was told that I 'look scary and capable of molesting children' and that I 'look like a devil worshipper' and that my hair is ugly, my nose is huge, my teeth/smile is 'fucked up.' Then while discussing this with a friend (another gay guy) he told me that I need to just accept comments like that because I'm 'very few people's type.' Ouch. I'm over it now but it really stung at the time.

As for the other things eating away at me, someone that I knew (but wasnt EXTREMELY close to) committed suicide and I wasn't able to go to his funeral. My ex is shoving his new relationship whenever he can. Multiple rejections (usually appearance based) have also made it hard to talk to people in person so I've pretty much become a recluse lately. I hate it that in Florida, you have to be drop dead gorgeous and rich in order to even obtain friendship. :/