matty7 Wrote:Congrats on your decision buddy - don't put too much pressure on yourself though...as cheesy as they say "take one day at a time" don't worry about if you have a slip one day either, just get back on the wagon and continue
i feel no desire to do it again.
already the last couple of times before this one (i.e. months ago) i wasn't so sure about it anymore. but i continued because i thought it might be some temporary aversion of mine that i'll get over. tuesday just confirmed it to me that i'm done. my body protested against every line i took that night. i didn't even finish the whole pack, i quit right in the middle of it.
i'm aware that it's no big deal if i decide to try it a couple of more times, it won't change things much. but i get nauseous just thinking about it. i can't even smell that thing without wanting to throw up. (amphetamine has this sting to it, when you snort it. and that sting travels to my eyes and to the ipsilateral side of my head, so that everything there ends up stinging. the taste is bitter and nauseating. and these adverse effects last between 15-25 minutes, depending on dosage, and i can't tolerate them). so, i don't think that'll happen.
if i want a fix, i'll stick with cocaine. i also learned that amphetamine can induce terminal degeneration in the dopaminergic neurons, which cocaine does not. so, for my physical well-being and for my dopaminergic neurons, i'll steer clear of it.