How are you today?

[Zet]

Thanks Odi. I had quite rough stressful months. Still do, I believe. I hope things will get better in time.

I always struggle to share my problems with people. I tend to think several times before I speak out my problems. I believe it has something to do with my childhood and teenage years. I built a rhino skin and auto defensive mode to protect myself. As a consequence, I prefer to solve problems by myself because I don't want to be seem as a weak person.

I will never be good at words as queeny but I agree with what he said, although it was ratter small
You are not alone, I am pretty terrified myself to say to much, to get to personal, pretty much why I keep my self to Lol threads. From what I've read there is a lot of things I can relate to in your post. Hope it gets better for you mate Take care.

Lol ye only gay men cooks? So does that mean that every chef is gay? :biggrin:

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Today am I feeling ratter confused, as always. If I am going to collage then I got to choose what to study, got no idea what I want to work with. The ignorance is killing me. I can't help either to stop thinking "Why am I gay? There is 6 Billion persons in the world, why do I have to be that 5% (3-8% somewhere) to be gay? What made me gay? Why...?", guess I just got hard to accept the fact that I am gay and nothing will ever change it. It just seem so simple living as straight. Just looking at my brother who'se been with the same girl for soon 3 years, makes me realize I want some intimacy to but not ready to come out.