How are you today?

[Dan1980]

I have told him. I've told him plenty of times that I need him around. But he doesn't care. Last time he was like "Oh, well I tend to ditch people." What the fuck kind of answer is that? But I let it slide and acted like nothing was wrong in the first place and he was fine with it. He talks to me like he's trying to be involved in my life and I try to ask him how thigns are going but he doesnt tell me anything. I have to find out from his friends on facebook that he's been going places and doing things. He won't tell me simple things anymore, but I push it aside and just keep everything nice and calm. He told everyone else about it when he changed his major and when he applied to a college but I had to dig to find out. He doesnt tell me that he has other friends or that he does things. Then he goes and tells me one thing but then I find out he's being doing other things been doing with his gf.
I admit, most of it's just jealousy. But I was sure we were friends and now we're just two people that happen to know each other. So if he's not going to tell me anything, then I wont say a word to him. I've never done anything wrong to him. I'm always sending him things and buying him stuff. I'm always trying to talk to him and find out if he's well. I dunno.
I say nice things because i love the guy. He'll make me happy every now and then. I'm happy on the rare occasion that he does message me back. I miss him more than anything, but he doesnt seem to care.
I dunno, i think i'm done trying to come between him and his girlfriend. If he doesn't want me anymore then whatever. It's not like there's anything left of this relationship anyways, just what I pretend there is.

I love my friend too. It's hard sometimes.