How are you today?

[Rainbowmum]

Confused, frustrated and feeling hopeless. Simplest to say I can't take it any more. I just feel like screaming, although I'm perfectly calm. Hard to describe really... Either living at my fathers home where I'm always feeling like worthless piece of shit or living at my mothers where I'm bugging so much on my bloody fucking step brother. Feels like I'm going mad literally, I just want to go as far away as possible, but how? Can't stop thinking about how nice it would be if I was no more, so I don't have to see, hear or experience one more single thing. Just a quiet empty void.

Sweetie if you need to scream do so , let it all out.
I really do not like bringing up the past , but I want you to remember the look in your mothers eyes the last time this happened.

Fight it sweetie , do not spiral down again .
The world would not be a better place without you , leaving will only bring unbearable pain for all those you love.

Please sweetie ,find that inner strength , that brought you out of that dark place.
You are not a quitter sweetheart , don't let the dark overcome you, fight this.

We are all here for you.