How are you today?

[ceez]

Confused, frustrated and feeling hopeless. Simplest to say I can't take it any more. I just feel like screaming, although I'm perfectly calm. Hard to describe really... Either living at my fathers home where I'm always feeling like worthless piece of shit or living at my mothers where I'm bugging so much on my bloody fucking step brother. Feels like I'm going mad literally, I just want to go as far away as possible, but how? Can't stop thinking about how nice it would be if I was no more, so I don't have to see, hear or experience one more single thing. Just a quiet empty void.

I know how that feels, I try to think of something positive or concentrate on one of my goals. I know it can be painful and lonely but you are not alone