Homosexuality and issues with one's same-sex parent

[BigCub]

I personally have no feelings of any kind toward my father. My parents are still married & live less than a mile from me. Growing up I never felt any connection to him or any need to ever talk to or have anything to do with him. In my eyes he was just always my mothers husband & the man who worked so we had money. I felt the same with everyone on his side of the family. All his siblings & his mother were just these people I had to see every now & then & had to pretend that I cared about them. Even now if I am out at the grocery store or or where ever in town & I happen to see my father, I avoid him or pretend like I didn't notice he was there.

Because I live in such a small town, where everyone seem to know everyone. I get stopped quite often by friends of the family. More often than not they will ask how my father is or ask something about him. Just to keep up appearances I have to pretend like I care what he is doing & tell them all about how he is & such, when deep down I want so desperately to say. I don't know, nor do I care, if you want to know how he is, then why don't you call him. Just because he is my father & lives less than a mile from me, does not mean I pay the man any attention what so ever nor does it mean I have to even speak to him. In fact I can sometimes manage to go almost a year without ever seeing or speaking to him. But I don't say those thing, I just tell them, he is fine & tell them anything that my mother or my sisters happen to have mentioned to me last time I talk to them.