11-10-2012, 01:11 PM
Today was kind of depressing. I had an odd yet pleasant dream which, when I woke up, gave me a shot of reality and put me in a sad mood all day. It's a big downer when, after a year of not being able to see the guy, the opportunity comes up and I get excited and in my mind i come up with all these things i want to tell him, and then suddenly I remember that he's in a pretty steady relationship with this girl and I know for a fact that he wants to keep it strong because he really does like this girl, so everything I built myself up for no longer matters and will only add more distance between us. It just really hurts to know that I can never be in the place this girl is at. Oh life...