How are you today?

[Hayden]

I'm not doin' so hot today. I've on ultra high anxiety all day, heart racing, vomitting feeling, overwhelmed by work, lonely. Being on campus 40 hrs a week and yet not experiencing any actual human contact is frustrating. Sometimes I just want to run up to a stranger and hug 'em and say "I know you don't know me and I don't know you, but seriously, why can't we be best friends?" or maybe just slap 'em. It's either that or get on all fours on the sidewalk and start banging on head on the cement until there's a sloppy, bloody pile of brains and hair that I can see, just as proof that I actually do exist.

I didn't sleep last night, not a wink. I was dreading coming back on campus for this very reason. I'm not sure what this feeling is or where it really comes from, but I really hate it.