08-02-2013, 01:15 AM
I'm quite excited.
Tonight I worked in the restaurant from which I resigned, because I remained available for some evenings, and...
Always is the same, it's obvious. The assistant manager tried to convince me to postpone the resignations (which will take place officially in a few days) and I saw... 'My' bar was in a bad condition. They could say whatever they want, but it's always the same shit or maybe worst, I found some rust on one machine that I was in use to clean every single day, a lot of broken glasses and another things like those.
I did not like to work tonight, but I was and I am very happy, cause I realized it, I did a difficult decision, maybe a stupid decision from some point of view, but It's MY DECISION.
Since I'm in London I'm doing many "difficult decisions", "impossible decisions" when I was in Italy. Things about my job, friends, family, myself and my sexuality. I remain a very complicated person, I'm slow, but I'm super fast in comparison of myself in Italy.
After the first 4 months in London I realized that I get more personal results then in the last 4 years in Italy, I'm not joking, recently I had some doubt, and now, after roughly 9 months, I restarted to think something similar.
It's difficult, it's difficult, but gosh, it's MY DECISION and maybe I am at peace with myself, something that in Italy has not happened to me in the last 15 years.
Tonight I worked in the restaurant from which I resigned, because I remained available for some evenings, and...
Always is the same, it's obvious. The assistant manager tried to convince me to postpone the resignations (which will take place officially in a few days) and I saw... 'My' bar was in a bad condition. They could say whatever they want, but it's always the same shit or maybe worst, I found some rust on one machine that I was in use to clean every single day, a lot of broken glasses and another things like those.
I did not like to work tonight, but I was and I am very happy, cause I realized it, I did a difficult decision, maybe a stupid decision from some point of view, but It's MY DECISION.
Since I'm in London I'm doing many "difficult decisions", "impossible decisions" when I was in Italy. Things about my job, friends, family, myself and my sexuality. I remain a very complicated person, I'm slow, but I'm super fast in comparison of myself in Italy.
After the first 4 months in London I realized that I get more personal results then in the last 4 years in Italy, I'm not joking, recently I had some doubt, and now, after roughly 9 months, I restarted to think something similar.
It's difficult, it's difficult, but gosh, it's MY DECISION and maybe I am at peace with myself, something that in Italy has not happened to me in the last 15 years.
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