How are you today?

[starlight]

Pretty crap, you get told one thing then another, you get told not to care and when you don't your wrong, you get told to care and get shit on and told think of your self, then your selfish. Being you its wrong, then you get told to be that even if it puts people off you, so you try not being you as that seems to be the only way to attract people but that fails and is wrong. No matter how you are if you have had issues since a young age, nothing will change ever, no matter how much people say they like you when you have witnessed many times people turn their backs and forget you and when you have tried to build a friendship they have not and that happens every time, So then you get told your with the wrong people try other but this happens with everyone, then you think its me what is the issue and then others say no its not its other who are idiots as your a nice guy and people would love you and how could they turn and forget you but on another angle you get told it is you so change. What is the purpose to live when you know you can't change it, you know its fucked.