How are you today?

[starlight]

Somebody let you down mate ? you sound in that dark place again

I saw something that hurt me alot a few days ago, it made me so upset i felt i was having a panic attack on the way, it made me cry alot and hurt me again deep inside. Along with generally feeling alone more than ever i have had to do over time at work, 14 hour shifts in one full day, then a 8 and then a 10 hour shift. I finally had a actual meal today. Nothing is changing in my life and i am sick of people saying it will and things take time. Thats coming from people who do not know what it is like to have never been in a relationship. The advice people usually say is like a prostitute telling a virgin sex isnt all that, when all they want is someone to hold them. I got tears writing this so it shows that thing is still hurting me.