How are you today?

[InbetweenDreams]

I've been great and motivated throughout last week, but very bad mood since yesterday. Seems like I just can't succeed in changing my life and really miss people to chat with about certain things, but I figure my case is too special / I'm too exotic to find people who would be interested in regular communication with me.

I guess I've also annoyed too many people with the same topics over and over again that I run out of options... I even considered leaving gayspeak cos I'm just rotating around always the same things, but I don't wanna be all alone with my thoughts either.. I just don't know what to do.

No one is too exotic. Good friends and lovers are hard to find, that is no doubt. I think a lot of people feel like they don't really fit in anywhere. I feel like that, some of my friends feel like that.

You can change your life if you want to but you do have to stop thinking negatively. It is practically like unlearning to do that, because doing it is just about automatic. Stop listening to your inner-critic, that's what I was told. So next time you start having negative thoughts, go for a walk, watch something on TV, read a book find something to divert your attention.