Choosing to live life in solitude

[Anonymous]

Hi Friends,

Is it okay to choose to live life in solitude?


I'm not sure, I just feel that I'm not good in making friends. (Note: I'm in my 30s now.)

The people whom I made friends with in various stages in my life lose interest in keeping contact after that stage is over.

Eg: - The people whom I made friends with in middle school lose contact with me after we went to high school.
      - The people whom I made friends with in high school lose contact with me after we went to college.

I'm not sure if it is common for people to lose contact after a certain stage in life has ended or whether I am an unpleasant person.

I do take the effort to message them to try to keep contact but they don't seem interested in continuing the conversation. Never once did they take the first step to contact me.

And there are some who only contact me when they need help like financially etc. And once they got what they needed, they just disappear again.

And many of them have settled down with spouse and kids, so they stopped contacting as well. 

Sometimes, I think to myself if it is better to live my life in solitude, just doing what I like to do and taking care of my needs. Do you think it's ok to choose to live my life in solitude?

But I am afraid that I might regret having no companions when I grow older (in 40s, 50s etc.). It will be nice to have a close friend whom you can message to and get a reply and also meet up in a restaurant, park etc. and chat with them.

Do you think it is still possible to find a close friend in your 30s? I just feel that I have grown too old to do that already.