Choosing to live life in solitude

[InbetweenDreams]

It is kind of normal to lose contact with or grow apart from people you knew when you were young. However, it is great when you do. Also, can you say you have put in effort to stay in touch with people? I mean the "old me" would say almost exactly the same, that people just stopped staying in touch with me, when really it is I who stopped staying in touch with them, because I am a huge introvert with social anxiety.

I think you need to address why you feel that you're an unpleasant person? I don't think that is true. Sure, no one is perfect but you will learn in life that almost everyone is severely flawed. Everyone is a little weird, most people are insecure about something. There is no real normal, other than the normal that is portrayed on TV and pop culture or often expressed in TV commercials.

There is more that I want to respond with but I have to leave and go somewhere and will be back later with the rest of my response.