Choosing to live life in solitude

[Anonymous]

Also, can you say you have put in effort to stay in touch with people?

Yup, it's not much, but I try to message them using chat apps.

I think you need to address why you feel that you're an unpleasant person?

Not sure why, but it makes me feel like something is wrong with me when people avoid me in conversations. It makes me feel like I am not worthy of friendships or conversations.

I mean if its only been "elevator talk" (that is making small talk like, "how about that weather?") that can be boring to people.

Yes, you are right. Most of my conversations are like that. I think maybe because I'm not a good conversation starter.

I don't think there's anything inherently wrong with living a life in solitude, however, how do you really feel about that? Do you really want to be alone?

I understand there are many motivational sayings that we must love ourselves, be comfortable being alone etc.

But still, it is desirable to have someone else to talk to.

Like talking about the old school days, college days, ex-company days etc.

Commenting about how the food is like (whether it's nice or not) while eating it together in a restaurant/cafe.

(Reminds me of a "friend" who likes to eat outside with me in the past but expects me to pay the bill every time.)

Playing a games like chess with another person. It's definitely different from playing computerized chess game.

I'm not saying that I want to be with another person 24/7. It's just that it's nice to have someone to talk to.