How are you today?

[Jay]

Groan.

It wasn't bad or terrible but still, meh.

I finally managed to confirm my friend who I had a crush (badly) with last year is straight. Previously I couldn't decide whether he's gay or straight. He is too nice and adorable. But I decided to play safe by assuming that he is completely straight. Unfortunately I still couldn't help to fall in love with him.

I never met a straight guy who would go, "Wearing bow tie today? You look good in it. You really look good." Laughed in masculine way. "So ... do you prefer tie or bow tie?" I replied and he laughed gently again.

But anyway I saw him eating lunch with his girlfriend today. Not the first time but I finally managed to confirm that the lady is his girlfriend. Aw, it broke my heart. His other male friend (Who I know as well but not close) saw my expression and I think he knows that I have a crush on that guy.

I think it's gonna be a bit challenging as both of us work in the same building. Groan. But so far, I'm doing alright. I had a chat with him this evening and we left our offices together. I headed home and he went to see his lady.

Such a lovely guy. Lucky girl, his girlfriend is. I hope both of them will have a great future together.

While I will sit alone at this corner here and wahhhhhhhhhhh. Sobs. He was my first crush. I had a big huge crush on him. Sobs.

Slightly sad to know that my first crush is really straight but I'll be fine. But his super pecs and abs will continue to distract me. :biggrin:

Interesting day.

His friend winked at me this morning. We were both in the building's lobby. The lobby was empty at the time. He was walking the opposite direction when he gave me a wink. My jaw almost dropped. But I managed to return him with a smile.

Was that a sign of flirting?

I'm not sure how to response to him tomorrow as I likely to bump into him again and again and again.

Another case is this one guy who works in the same company with my first crush and my first crush's friend.

He would start whistling at me everytime he sees me. He whistled in the elevator. Whilst crossing a road. When exiting the building where I work to go home (He was walking behind me).

How in the world do I response to that? So far I just acted like I heard nothing because again, I don't know how to response to him. Maybe I should start smiling and talk to him as well.

Then there's this another guy who I always bump into when I head home from work. He heads to the opposite direction as he wants to go to a nearby gym. We bumped into each other for almost two years now. So what do we do when we see each other? We stare at each other nonstop. I never had the guts to smile at him. Maybe I should start smiling at him as well.

But I don't want to flirt with any of them because ughh ... I hate to say this but I still have a tiny feeling for my first crush and second reason is well, I'm not ready to get into a relationship yet.