11-27-2010, 01:43 PM
Settled my huge project yesterday. Almost had tears as I was under a huge stress. My boss and the CEO of the property (developer) were satisfied with my work. They said I did a very good work but I personally feel like I have failed to execute and produce a good project. I personally noticed that I made a design error on 6 pieces of printed 3ft x 6ft posters for today's exhibition. But it is too late to reprint. Obviously I made that mistake due to out of focus as I designed those posters at around 11 pm in my office. Plus I didn't sleep for two days in a row. Printing cost few hundreds too. I am disappointed and embarrassed with the quality of my work. This is my first mistake within my 2 years career working in this company. But I'll try to ignore this feeling, forget it and do a better job next time.
I guess I was that stressful that I didn't remember my own cell phone number for a few days, forgot my ATM pin code (I kept putting wrong code continuously on two different ATM machines), left my house key at office (Had to sleep at a friend's house) etc. Ugh. My brain was really that tired. My eyes according to my friends and colleagues were bloody teary red. But the worst was having a micro chest pain or something (heart beat) in two random days (Last Saturday and on last Wednesday). That freaked me out as I am a health freak.
Need to get back in shape. Sure, I've never skipped my morning run daily but I am still not in the best condition considering that I've been slaving myself to work for a full month. I am mentally and physically out. I am also dehydrated as I didn't drink a lot of water daily for a month.
Received a pep talk from a friend on last Thursday that made me think deep. She pointed that I was losing confidence and worried too much on people's opinions nowadays. I didn't realize that until she pointed it out.
Life as a designer can really suck your soul when it needs to. Thank goodness it only happens once in a blue moon. I need to reclaim my life in a whole back.
P/S: Speaking of last Wednesday, I ate my lunch with one of my closest colleagues at a shopping mall's food court. She's Chinese and a Buddhist and I am technically a Muslim by race (Though I am actually officially an agnostic). So we shared our lunch by eating from the same bowl. A Muslim husband and wife sat beside us. The husband sat opposite of my friend and the wife sat opposite of me. They kept looking at us as we ate from the same bowl. I really wanted tell them a a joke at the time, "Hello, I'm not a Muslim today. It's my day off." I told my friend about it afterward. She slapped my back and laughed. Note people: I am agnostic. I don't play religion. I constantly share the same food from the same plate with my non-Muslim friends. In private and in public. So suck it.
I guess I was that stressful that I didn't remember my own cell phone number for a few days, forgot my ATM pin code (I kept putting wrong code continuously on two different ATM machines), left my house key at office (Had to sleep at a friend's house) etc. Ugh. My brain was really that tired. My eyes according to my friends and colleagues were bloody teary red. But the worst was having a micro chest pain or something (heart beat) in two random days (Last Saturday and on last Wednesday). That freaked me out as I am a health freak.
Need to get back in shape. Sure, I've never skipped my morning run daily but I am still not in the best condition considering that I've been slaving myself to work for a full month. I am mentally and physically out. I am also dehydrated as I didn't drink a lot of water daily for a month.
Received a pep talk from a friend on last Thursday that made me think deep. She pointed that I was losing confidence and worried too much on people's opinions nowadays. I didn't realize that until she pointed it out.
Life as a designer can really suck your soul when it needs to. Thank goodness it only happens once in a blue moon. I need to reclaim my life in a whole back.
P/S: Speaking of last Wednesday, I ate my lunch with one of my closest colleagues at a shopping mall's food court. She's Chinese and a Buddhist and I am technically a Muslim by race (Though I am actually officially an agnostic). So we shared our lunch by eating from the same bowl. A Muslim husband and wife sat beside us. The husband sat opposite of my friend and the wife sat opposite of me. They kept looking at us as we ate from the same bowl. I really wanted tell them a a joke at the time, "Hello, I'm not a Muslim today. It's my day off." I told my friend about it afterward. She slapped my back and laughed. Note people: I am agnostic. I don't play religion. I constantly share the same food from the same plate with my non-Muslim friends. In private and in public. So suck it.
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