I am very confused and do not have anyone to talk to.

[maxicosi]

dude its not a curse! =) i know your freakin out but just relax, no one is going to find out unless YOU want them to, this is YOUR business no one elses, you have all the time in the world to explore what you want when you want, when i realised i was gay i spent days pondering it and then slowly exploring it before i was at the point i wanted to be with another guy in a relationship. Your in america and you might not live in the most liberal area from what ive heard but its very very true that thousands of gay people have totally 100 per cent normal relationships no different from a straight one, im one of them. Me and my partner lived together, had fights, hanged out with straight friends, went on dates, i go shopping for him if he needed something and even mentioned to the store assistant i need something for my bf they dont batter an eyelid its like normal for me. Im very lucky in that ive never ever seen homophobic behaviour as an adult infact if someone did that here they would be arrested and they would be public enemy number 1. I dont live in a gay area theres only one gay club here too but not everyone is narrow minded in the world. So i guess im trying to prove to you that there really is no difference in some gay relationships to straight ones other than whats between your legs.