I am very confused and do not have anyone to talk to.

[marshlander]

Nate, you sound very "normal" to me (whatever "normal" is supposed to mean!). You've also realised a fact that some people in the straight world aren't really keen for you to find out - i.e. that a loving couple is a loving couple, whatever sex they happen to be.

Please keep writing here. If nothing else it's quite a good way for you to try and work out what you are thinking. It will all work out fine one way or another given time.

Good luck.