Best Friend to More Then to Gone

[LoveOnTheRocks]

I had a best friend who I had met through one of my mom's friends. We had clicked from the start and were stuck to each other like glue. Eventually we took our friendship a step further and both threw our virginity out the door. From then on we'd always do these things when I spent the night with him. Hell, we even slept in the same bed for the years we'd have sex. He moved in with me due to his mom and dad fighting. And in that time we still slept in the same bed. In our third year together he worked up the nerve to kiss me. That night began our true relationship which had went on for one year. At the end of that year his mom got a divorce and decided to move to Ohio. I couldn't believe it, for four years the boy who had been my best friend and lover had to leave. Not out of his own will but out of force. I lost him for awhile until I got to see him one last time when my mom and I had visited. That last night we did what we had always done. After we talked and he wanted to come back to where he used to live and secretly no matter how selfish I wanted him back to. In the morning he woke up and we decide to do it one last time before I had to leave. But in the middle of th eact we were caught by my mom. That was the hardest thing ever to explain to her and especially when you have your pants around your ankles. That pretty much sealed the deal right there and I knew I'd never see him again but at the end of it all I still got my goodbye kiss. The thing with this is I don't know how to get over him completely since I always have nightmere's about him. And how do I ever love my mom again when she did that? All I feel for her is emptiness. I just need advice on this considering it kills me. So please help. And sorry it turned out to be that long. Thanks.:confused: