01-18-2014, 10:09 PM
So I'm straight guy so I guess I don't really belong in this site, but I'm gay friendly. I've problem with my friend. We're both 17 years old and we know each other for almost 11 years and we're also classmates. He's a really good friend, we know each other very well. He has pulled me out of so many troubles and I appreciate his friendship very much.
However something strange is happening between us during the last few months. I know I'm straight and I think he's straight too. We've never talked about sexual orientations, but he speaks of girls often, even just few days ago he told me about this sexy girl he saw on the street. But when we're together we're both behaving kind of weird. At school we're sitting together at one desk and sometimes I feel him pressing his leg against mine and I realize I don't want to push him away. If there's no one else around he sometimes ruffles my hair. When I was very distraught about failing in math, he was comforting me, put his arm around my shoulders and got so close to me and again I realized I want to rest my head on his shoulder ( I didn't, though). I've started to notice things about him I didn't care about before - that he has nice hair, long lashes and beautiful eyes.
Then there was this one time at his home when his parents were gone, I had come to him, because we were doing a research project together and we were studying, laughing, telling jokes and then we started to wrestle in a friendly manner. I was real fun and again I understood I don't enjoy it in just friendly way. I liked to feel that he's much stronger than me, to feel him close to me. When I feel bad, I always realize I want him to hold me. And I don't understand how can it happen to a straight guy?
I've never liked him in that way before, I never liked guys that way. I can't talk to him about it, never, it would be too embarrassing, I don't want to show him I like him in a different way. Maybe I should stay away from him for a while? But that would be hard, as we're classmates.
However something strange is happening between us during the last few months. I know I'm straight and I think he's straight too. We've never talked about sexual orientations, but he speaks of girls often, even just few days ago he told me about this sexy girl he saw on the street. But when we're together we're both behaving kind of weird. At school we're sitting together at one desk and sometimes I feel him pressing his leg against mine and I realize I don't want to push him away. If there's no one else around he sometimes ruffles my hair. When I was very distraught about failing in math, he was comforting me, put his arm around my shoulders and got so close to me and again I realized I want to rest my head on his shoulder ( I didn't, though). I've started to notice things about him I didn't care about before - that he has nice hair, long lashes and beautiful eyes.
Then there was this one time at his home when his parents were gone, I had come to him, because we were doing a research project together and we were studying, laughing, telling jokes and then we started to wrestle in a friendly manner. I was real fun and again I understood I don't enjoy it in just friendly way. I liked to feel that he's much stronger than me, to feel him close to me. When I feel bad, I always realize I want him to hold me. And I don't understand how can it happen to a straight guy?
I've never liked him in that way before, I never liked guys that way. I can't talk to him about it, never, it would be too embarrassing, I don't want to show him I like him in a different way. Maybe I should stay away from him for a while? But that would be hard, as we're classmates.
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