I Dont Know When

[CrossNecklace]

So Im 21 Years Old And Still "in The Closet". Im Not Really Liking That Phrase Much. Its Really Hard For Me But I Know Its Hard For Everyone. I Know My Family Know, My Parents And My Brothers. But I Just Cant Find The Courage To Actually Tell Them. Its Hard Enough For Me To Actually Say It When Im By Myself. I Know It'll Be Hard To Tell My Closest Friends Too. I Know They'd Understand But I Just Dont Know. How Would They Look At Me You Know? I Just Dont Know When Ill Find The Courage To Come Out To Everyone. I Mean I've Had One Girlfriend That Didnt Last Very Long. To Be Honest It Only Lasted 2 Months And That Was In High School. We Just Made Out Alot. No Sex. Though I Wanted To But I Just Know There'd Be A Problem. She Was Really Hot And Still Is. What Would She Say If I Come Out To Her Then? Some Of My Friends Have Asked Me If I Was Gay And Of Course I Said No. It Hurts When They Ask =[. But They Deserve To Know The Truth. There Are Times When I Couldnt Sleep And I Just Really Wanted To Cry And Tell Someone. I Should Stop Here I Just Want To Know What You Guys Think?