Confused teenager... can i get some advice?

[Musiq]

As some of you may know, i have currently been in a relationship for five months, with a man named Ryan. But the thing is, Lately i've been confused... im not really sure what to feel, or what to say or tell him. He asks whats wrong, but i say nothing's wrong, because i dont know how to say or put it into words. Im having a hard time knowing how, or what, to feel. Im wondering, is this in a way normal?

And another thing that makes all the more difficult, and frustrating, is that i recently became friends with this gay guy at school, named Alex, and the thing is..... me and him both have aspergers syndrome. but thats not it. What scares me the most is that, a couple of nights ago, sometime when i was asleep, i had a dream about the guy, and the last thing i can remember is that me and him were kissing... and honestly it;s driving me insane. I'm trying to remain faithful in the relationship im in now, and the thing of it is, i can;t tell him any of these things because i know he would just get jealous and be like that for who knows how long. And a bit upset...

I could really use some advice here, this is the only place i know of where i can talk about stuff like this... is this in a way normal? is it suppossed to mean something?