Unhappy huge crush on straight childhood best friend

[Anonymous]

I've got a major crush on my best friend, we've been best of buds since junior high but lately I've developed strong feelings for him and I am not sure where to turn. We hang out almost daily and calls each other on regular basis and doing most together.

It was maybe some months ago I figured my own sexuality and there has been many ups and downs from there on. I have not came out of the closet but as time goes all I want is to, but I am afraid and so insecure. How people will react, how my parents will react, etc... But also, am I really who I claim to be?

Anyhow down to business. Lately all I got on my mind is "Mike", dreaming of us together. I've never find my self so attracted to another person like him in my life... his eyes, his hair, his body, his voice, even his smell intoxicates me. Just being with him enlightens my day, but it hurts also so much being with him... That no matter what, he will never feel the same for me, as I feel for him. I am tired of all tears that has fallen.

What shall I do? He is my best friend although and been since little, but I can't hide my feelings for ever, and I'm tired of feeling hurt. All I want inside is being with him, but I know it wont.