Horrible Self-Confidence

[undercoverforev]

Hey everyone,

I am currently facing a pretty huge problem: I have close to zero self-confidence. It's very strange, because all my friends tell me I'm good-looking, I spend a lot of time making sure I look good, and I often find gay guys checking me out. (I don't want to sound conceited and like I'm fishing for compliments, but I just want everyone to know the background.) A while back, I was in a relationship with someone who eventually cheated on me and broke my heart. Since then, I haven't been able to trust anyone or even give anyone a fighting chance. It also doesn't help that I I am extremely shy and whenever someone cute is checking me out, I turn away and look in the opposite direction, pretending as though I didn't notice them checking me out. I've been single for a few years now, and my friends are always interested in setting me up with someone, but I always scoff and tell them not to bother because I want to die alone. Sometimes, I really do feel this way, but other times, I want to feel once again what I felt with my ex-boyfriend.

Honestly, I don't even know where I wanted this thread to go.... but my main question is, how can I fix my horrible self-confidence? I am too scared to ever make a move, and I fear this will affect me in the long-run.

Thank you!