Confused guy.

[mguy]

To start off im a 21 year old guy living with mom working away from home my state and some what unhappy. Im having trouble with my sexual identity. I had my first homosexual experiance when i was about 8 years old in mexico back then it felt as if it was just a game. Then again when i was 10 with a boy who lived in the same apartment with my perents and I. Afetr i had moved away to a new home and met some new friends I looked forward to having the same kind of friendship i had with my other previous friends but by that time in life i had learned what being gay was and what it ment to other boys my age "different" unwanted. So i tryd to forget what happened in my past and pretend i was just like them to fit in. This went on till junior year when i met a girl and i liked her she was sweet smart and well she liked me. This is the part of my life that im triping about was i just attracted to her because all my other friends would have? Or was it because i realy was. And at the same still being interested in guys?:confused: