Stress Dreams

[Bowyn Aerrow]

Writing is your job now, its not a hobby. So it doesn't really count.

Now if you only wrote for the hell of it and not in search of the Almighty Dollah, it may be stress reducing. I suspect that now its more of a chore (a job) where you are constantly worried about it selling instead of just writing because it feels good to put down words.

The whole idea here is to be in full control over something. If you are doing something to make an Almighty Dollah, then you are going to not being in full control, you are going to be constantly thinking about what your editor or the reader is going to want, thus you are going to relinquish control to them. Sure it may not be a huge thing, but you are still giving up your power.

You had your power taken from you by some very bad people. Jobs, careers, making an almighty dollah or appeasing other people, government, religion, whatever are not going to give you back the power you need. Doing something utterly selfish and totally for yourself to where you get to decide if you paint it blue or purple or some solid color like plaid not because you are attempting to please someone else (submit to their will) because you will it to be whatever you want it to be.

Sure, having a satisfying job and making ends meet can satisfy many other aspects, right now your issue is control/power not these other things. Thus you need to do something that puts you in total command of something.