no idea where to find others like me.

[hank]

Depends on where you live, I guess. In bigger cities, you'll have gay bars, but it's not for everyone (I'm not of bars myself), or see about MeetUp groups...

I live in a huge city, with a large gay population. But I have been programmed to see gay people as deviants, so therefore I see myself as a deviant. I don't mean to offend, it is really my upbringing that is responsible forr that skewed concept. but because of that coupled with my past self degradation gay pop culture appeals very little to me. The more lgbt people I meet the more I realize the stereotypes are placed there by straight people inorder to identify gay people. For the more homophobic ones to see a greater gap between themselves and the dreaded gay people. (sorry my attempt at humor)

Jumping over that fence (proverbially) or realizing there is no fence there isn't easy, it goes against everything I thought I knew. It is hard to adjust when your world has been turned on its head. To murder the metaphor, right now I am living on the ciling, I just need to realize that it was the floor all along.